Life sure can be a challenge sometimes. It seems as soon as one area of life is going well something else just keeps kicking you while your down. I haven't been working too much. I was used to 72 hours a week so now being at around 30-40 hours a week it seems a little crazy. I am happy that my husband is working more, because it's given me some time to just relax.
Winter is coming and Tyler really needed some clothes. So, I bought him a few new things to hold him over until I can buy more. Check out my cute boy.

Tigers, lions, jerks, and bears oh my

Ann and I went for our normal walk. She wrestled a bear and started carrying it around in her mouth. Be very afraid of her. haha. Truth is that I took it from a box of stuff animals someone was throwing out.
I noticed some jerk was watching us on his bike. I know I shouldn't worry, because between Ann and me we could take him down and throw his bike at him. But I was scared. I didn't want him to see me go home. I started to walk to my husband's work, before he told me to just go back home and call the police. By the time, I got back home, he is no where to be seen. Unless he is the basement. I am not checking. Ann won't follow me there, because she has been trained not to. Ya should have seen me drag her down when I thought a tornado was coming. Besides, I am not going to get trapped in a basement. Let's just say that instead of Ann killing the carebear in the back yard, she is in the house with me.

I had lunch with my friend yesterday. We talked about how we met and the past. It was really nice to get out of the house. We hung out for about 4 hours lol. We had a really good time. I think everyone needs at least one really good friend. I am glad that I have one.

My Friend

I want to show off my new friend. Don't get too jealous!!

In the last couple weeks, I had just got that loving feeling back for my job. I have got past the depression of missing Bob and Sandy and have moved on. I felt like I was doing good for my new clients and was enjoying working again. I was/am putting up with all kids of crazy hours. Sometimes, I have been at work by 8 am and sometimes not there till 1 30 pm or yet even working 10pm to 8 am. I have been trying to be willing to bend over backwards for them, but I can only do so much.
My client that is on hospice moved to the next level of care. I can't take care of her anymore. No one in my company can, because we can't give meds if they are not with it enough to drug themselves. So, now I have lost 25 hours this week. I only ask for one day off that I can't work and that's the day they can offer me. Or I can take a 12 hour third shift, but then only get to sleep two hours before I work a long day that takes a hour of driving there and back. I won't kill myself and others for this job.
I have been dealing with only mostly working outside of Rockford.I guess when old people here get sick, the kids are just throwing their parents in nursing homes, because most of the people that I have seen are from out of town. I am trying to enjoy the drive and listening to music, but at what point do I say enough is enough. When a 10 hour day takes up 12 hours of my day, I feel that it's time to say no further.
Tad and I went on another road trip and I met a new friend. He was cute. I might post a picture later. Don't get jealous cause you didn't meet new friends.

Do you ever wonder what is the meaning behind a screen name or a title to something like my blog? Sometimes, I wonder and sometimes it's fun to imagine what they might mean. Mygrl4meee means that I am my husband's girl. Well, now all of you can quit wondering now haha.
It's such a beautiful, warm day out there. Ann took me for a little walk and no loose dogs came up on us. She shows her teeth to them, but otherwise she don't care about the fenced doggies. I love my puppy dog. Well, got to go to work half way across the country to make a few bucks. I am retraining a blind lady how to live on her own. Teaching her stuff. My other client is on hospice. God if you are reading, no deaths on my shift. Bye now. I just reread this and it appears that I maybe crazy! Oh well, who isn't crazy these days!!!! Love ya!!!!!!

I am slowly getting used to working third shift. I don't have a problem dropping off to sleep when I get home from work. My client that I am with now is on hospice now. She is dieing from too many years of smoking or who knows what killed her lungs. It's sad, but she is about 85 years old.

I am loving my husband more and more these days. Life has been going pretty good. I think he is a keeper!!!! I have to chase all the other girls away though. Just kidding. I don't have to worry.

How much is that dolly in the window?

When I seen this doll at the doll shop, I just had to have it. All I could see was the red hair and I thought it might bring my husband memories of Jennifer when she was little. I don't think it does, because of the curls, but anyways I just think this doll is so cute. She needs a name though.

I made it through Ashley's 18th birthday. It was hard, but not as bad as last year. I released 18 balloons over the river at the Ymca to celebrate all on my own. Then, I took a little walk and just thought to myself. The night time was the worst.
Today, we took a road trip and had a good time. Will was with us and everyone got along very well. We also picked up my new doll who needs a name and some furniture. Now, it's time for bed.

Work has still been a little crazy. I have had to do a lot of traveling and some getting lost. However, the people that I have been going to have been great. Today, I worked with a lady that is blind. She is trying to adjust to taking care of herself. It's awesome to be a part of helping her live on her own again. She seems to understand that she can't just adjust super fast. I think she will manage and slowly improve.
There's been a couple other women that I have taken care of. They all have been so nice. There minds are pretty much all there, but have other issues. I am no longer going to the dr who was a jerk. He probably had the most money and I got to go out to dinner a lot, but what a uncomfortable place to be. I would rather hang out with someone with a little less money and bring my own lunch and be treated right. Money isn't crap if they think they are God, because they have more than you.

I thought I would post some more pictures from the other day. This place was so cool!! These are just a few of the awesome stuff from the bible that they. We went back there with Jennifer to show her. We noticed the place is for sale. The yard and the house is huge!! If anyone is taking notes, the house is on my list for Christmas presents!!! hahaha

Third shift really sucks. I think I was sleeping before I arrived home. I am not expected to do much, but be there when the clients need me. This client I just came from reported that one of the caregivers yelled at her. That isn't right. I will probably report that, because there is no excuse for not taking care of the client and yelling at them.

our day trip

I decided instead of being home and sad to run away from home. Well, not really run away, but just get out of town away from my troubles. I was so happy that I made my wishes clear and my husband was able to help me. We went on a road trip and I will be honest I didn't care where we went. Also, I didn't have a clue on where we were, but who needs a sense of direction when I can bring my husband.
I took some beautiful pictures with the camera Will gave me. Here is a few of them.

The flowers are my gift to Tad for making me so happy.

6 more days until Ashley's birthday. Anyone want any cake? Birthday cake without the birthday girl is very hard to eat. Not only is it Ashley's birthday it's crashed into the world trade centers day too!! I wonder how sharing her birthday with that horrible day affects her. I don't know nothing. I hope she has a great birthday. She is old enough to move, marry or do just about anything she wants now. It's hard to feel anything but sadness around her birthday. Someone wake me up when September leaves. I am losing my battle within myself. Not that when September leaves all will be well. It will just be one more birthday gone.

I had to have him

Tyler wanted to hang out with his aunt. So, we went to pay on my doll and I found another one that I just had to have. Well, he has already been something I wanted to buy. Yesterday, she was giving a rocking free. How could I say no.

Wake me up when September leaves. It only it was that easy.