I had to clean out all the pictures in my at&t phone, because I have a new phone with a new plan, and also a new number. This was from camp last summer. The new phone has a better plan, but the pictures aren't as good. See this one is at&t and some of the other ones on her on the new company. I guess I can't have it all. Well off to class.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Ymca
I have been feeling pretty stressed lately. Sometimes my mind is going faster than I like. I have too much going on around me, and I get worked up over issues that bother me. Today, I went to the YMCA, and worked out for about 30 minutes, and then sat in the hot tub. It was great. I just loved it. The best way I can describe it is to getting drunk. Not just any kind of drunk. Now I am not a big drinker. I like to drink Arbor mist, and can drink the whole bottle in a night. That however is like drinking kool-aid. The kind of drunk I am referring to is the kind where you just feel so damn good, but your not sick. It's not easy to find that feeling from more than just a buzz, and being smashed, but not to the point where your going to be sick. I don't get that feeling very often, because the sick feeling scares me away. So most of the time, I am happy with my arbor mist or one or two hard drinks. What I am getting at that this hot tub, with the jets running was out of this world. It made me feel so good, and helped keep my spirts up today.
Afterwards Tyler, and I went to the store, and I was feeling good, and happy to please Tyler's wishes. The boy got a box of little debbies, and some chocolate milk. Yummy for his tummy. I bought Tad a corn beef. He loves that, and I think it's pretty darn good myself.
So I am driving home, and I feel great. Then Tyler says, "Mom how come I don't have a sister? " Is that the time to say, "Well Tyler, you do have a sister, but she was made to go away?" Even though I was grown up enough to babysit her brother and sister, and basically fend for herself. Mommy was lied to and treated like shit. Your sister's name is Ashley, and even though she is your sister, but you won't really know what it's like to have a sister, because she lives with other people. I didn't say all that. Tyler said, I should have had three babies. I think he already knows about her, because everyone else does. So I got to sit down, and explain to him, but I don't think driving is the right time. It's hard for me to comprhend it all. It sucks that kids got to deal with this. Opps I went off the subject of the ymca. We have three free guest passes to the YMCA, and if anyone wants to go and work out, or better yet sit in the hot tub. Let us know, and we will go.
I am close to crazy, but since I know it. I must not be crazy, because if your crazy you don't know it. bye all.
Afterwards Tyler, and I went to the store, and I was feeling good, and happy to please Tyler's wishes. The boy got a box of little debbies, and some chocolate milk. Yummy for his tummy. I bought Tad a corn beef. He loves that, and I think it's pretty darn good myself.
So I am driving home, and I feel great. Then Tyler says, "Mom how come I don't have a sister? " Is that the time to say, "Well Tyler, you do have a sister, but she was made to go away?" Even though I was grown up enough to babysit her brother and sister, and basically fend for herself. Mommy was lied to and treated like shit. Your sister's name is Ashley, and even though she is your sister, but you won't really know what it's like to have a sister, because she lives with other people. I didn't say all that. Tyler said, I should have had three babies. I think he already knows about her, because everyone else does. So I got to sit down, and explain to him, but I don't think driving is the right time. It's hard for me to comprhend it all. It sucks that kids got to deal with this. Opps I went off the subject of the ymca. We have three free guest passes to the YMCA, and if anyone wants to go and work out, or better yet sit in the hot tub. Let us know, and we will go.
I am close to crazy, but since I know it. I must not be crazy, because if your crazy you don't know it. bye all.
Monday, October 27, 2008
I am at school. I had to learn about the career services program at RVC, because I have to do a powerpoint presentation, and that is what I chose to do mine on. Why that one? Well because, I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. We are past mid terms, and I am getting satisfactory grades. In a couple weeks, I will register for my second semester here. I guess I got to get to figuring life out. I just really want to be a Toy's R us kid!!!
My clients are doing well. Bob* has made a recovery. I am not saying he isn't tired. They both will tell you growing old isn't for sissy's. Just yesterday, I over heard him telling her. Remember how your son, Patrick* hated to talk to Sally* because all she talked about was bowel movements. He says well now, I understand. That is always a problem with us old people. lol I bet you just wanted to know if you get lucky enough to live to be old, your going to spend a lot of time in the bathroom. Sandy* is doing well, except for her memory. Sometimes she forgets where we live, and other information. Or she will tell you stuff like, we made candy, and you know she didn't make candy. So you just go along with her, and hope when we get home, she doesn't ask for the candy. Well enough for now.
*'s mean fake names
My clients are doing well. Bob* has made a recovery. I am not saying he isn't tired. They both will tell you growing old isn't for sissy's. Just yesterday, I over heard him telling her. Remember how your son, Patrick* hated to talk to Sally* because all she talked about was bowel movements. He says well now, I understand. That is always a problem with us old people. lol I bet you just wanted to know if you get lucky enough to live to be old, your going to spend a lot of time in the bathroom. Sandy* is doing well, except for her memory. Sometimes she forgets where we live, and other information. Or she will tell you stuff like, we made candy, and you know she didn't make candy. So you just go along with her, and hope when we get home, she doesn't ask for the candy. Well enough for now.
*'s mean fake names
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Multimedia message
I am working on a scrap book. This is a drawing of the two story home, my parents owned, until the middle of the 4th grade year. I never knew what I had till it was gone. That was a home that I always knew would be there. Too much moving around after that. This house is gone, because a few years ago, it was tore down to build another walgreens. Like we needed another walgreens. I am not a artist, but I put a lot of work into it, and now I can add it to my book.
Our weekend
We had both kids this weekend, as we do every other weekend. We went out to Sam's for dinner, for fish. Tad is crazy about their fish. I like it too, and it beats cooking any day. But we go there too much. While at dinner, we called Jennifer and Gary to wish them a Happy Birthday. It was Will's idea. When we got home, as always, I didn't feel like moving.
We went to the mall. Will likes to look around at the mall. I don't like to do that. I love to go to the paint store there, but I agree to looking around once or twice a year.
Tyler got to jump on the trampoline.
Then we looked, and looked, and finally Will was done looking. He didn't find anything that was worth giving out his money for. If it had been my money, now that would be different. But that is a kid for you. Then we went to Kmart and bought Tyler a new coat, and some pj's for the winter coming up, and I lost my debit card. I thought maybe it fell through the crack on the dashboard.
Then we came home, and Tyler and I made cupcakes for my brother's Matt's birthday.
Then Tad and Will, and I played Rummy. Then it was time to rest up for work the next day. Boy this is hard work!!!
P.S. I am trying to learn how to post more than one picture to a post,but it's not working quite the way I want it to. Bye all
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Work and other stuff
I am at work for another 24 hour shift. I am so tired of doing these live-ins. I can't complain about the amount of work that I do there. It's no more work than if I was working a 8 to 12 hour shift taking care of the elderly. In a way it less, because they get used to you, and want you to sit down and watch that movie. The last one was October sky. I don't know why, but I felt like crying after it was over. It was such a good movie. I was trying to do my reading, but Bob* pressured me into watching the movie. I am spending hours on the internet, and can do school work, and talk on the phone. It's the perfect job, but I miss my family.
I don't have enough time on the days I am home to do what I feel I want or need to do. I only get 4 days a week with my family, and if you count the days Tyler is with Bill, and Will is with Bill that is even less. Then of course Tad has to work. School is getting to be more time consuming. I did get some postive feedback yesterday. But what I really want or need to do is
Go to the ymca and have fun with kids
Go to the ymca and work out
Walk Ann, and pay attention to all the other animals
Pay attention to my guy (opps Ann came first)
I want to get my head on streight
I need to do more cleaning around the house
I would love to visit with my family more
Also see and talk more to my friend, Rachel.
I want to help kids with homework, and play games
I want to not feel so broke. What am I working for? It seems like nothing.
I want a normal job where I have 7 days a week to spread out family time and all the other stuff, instead of just four days.
Last summer, I really thought at least one of my clients would die before the winter arrived. Well winter is almost here, and both are still kicking. Bob isn't doing too well, but as soon as I think he is a goner then he fights a little more and is a little stronger. There love for each other is fucking amazing. They just love each other so much, and kiss and hug like teenagers. I am not ready to walk away yet, but when one dies the other one will probably follow and then I can get a real job. I don't have a clue what I want to be when I grow up? Do I want to continue working around old people? Not sure. I can't make any real money, but if I got paid bonus for the hugs and kisses then the job would pay. Do I want to go into social services, and provide assistance to young pregnant girls so they can decide to parent or place for adoption. I don't know if I could keep my thoughts about adoption out of the process. So I might not last long if I work for a agency. If women don't place they don't make any money. The adoption agency's are today's black market baby snatching. Enough about that. I want to go home. The silence here or the loud TV is driving me crazy!
Most people would probably be jealous to have my job. You had to do what?? Watch a movie?? But don't forget, I got to push old people to do things like change their depends, take a shower, change depends. Not this old lady though, she changes them herself. I got to watch her mind slowly fall apart. Just a little while ago, she was talking about herself in the 3rd person. How weird. I got to watch his health fail. His talking about he can't hold on much longer. Him telling me how he has to either have a severe back ache, or live with a stomach ache. I get to watch him fight to keep his independence. He wants his son to take care some of the issues like, medications, and running him to the dr, that I can't do. But he doesn't want to lose that fight. He don't want to burden him. He is saying god dammit. I can do it! He did seem to give up driving! Are you still jealous? Because if you are. I can give ya my job, but you can give me your paycheck!!!!! hahahahahaha It's not gonna get ya very far so ya might as well give it to me. I know I just rambled on and one, and I don't care for the moment about comma places lol. Bye all.
I don't have enough time on the days I am home to do what I feel I want or need to do. I only get 4 days a week with my family, and if you count the days Tyler is with Bill, and Will is with Bill that is even less. Then of course Tad has to work. School is getting to be more time consuming. I did get some postive feedback yesterday. But what I really want or need to do is
Go to the ymca and have fun with kids
Go to the ymca and work out
Walk Ann, and pay attention to all the other animals
Pay attention to my guy (opps Ann came first)
I want to get my head on streight
I need to do more cleaning around the house
I would love to visit with my family more
Also see and talk more to my friend, Rachel.
I want to help kids with homework, and play games
I want to not feel so broke. What am I working for? It seems like nothing.
I want a normal job where I have 7 days a week to spread out family time and all the other stuff, instead of just four days.
Last summer, I really thought at least one of my clients would die before the winter arrived. Well winter is almost here, and both are still kicking. Bob isn't doing too well, but as soon as I think he is a goner then he fights a little more and is a little stronger. There love for each other is fucking amazing. They just love each other so much, and kiss and hug like teenagers. I am not ready to walk away yet, but when one dies the other one will probably follow and then I can get a real job. I don't have a clue what I want to be when I grow up? Do I want to continue working around old people? Not sure. I can't make any real money, but if I got paid bonus for the hugs and kisses then the job would pay. Do I want to go into social services, and provide assistance to young pregnant girls so they can decide to parent or place for adoption. I don't know if I could keep my thoughts about adoption out of the process. So I might not last long if I work for a agency. If women don't place they don't make any money. The adoption agency's are today's black market baby snatching. Enough about that. I want to go home. The silence here or the loud TV is driving me crazy!
Most people would probably be jealous to have my job. You had to do what?? Watch a movie?? But don't forget, I got to push old people to do things like change their depends, take a shower, change depends. Not this old lady though, she changes them herself. I got to watch her mind slowly fall apart. Just a little while ago, she was talking about herself in the 3rd person. How weird. I got to watch his health fail. His talking about he can't hold on much longer. Him telling me how he has to either have a severe back ache, or live with a stomach ache. I get to watch him fight to keep his independence. He wants his son to take care some of the issues like, medications, and running him to the dr, that I can't do. But he doesn't want to lose that fight. He don't want to burden him. He is saying god dammit. I can do it! He did seem to give up driving! Are you still jealous? Because if you are. I can give ya my job, but you can give me your paycheck!!!!! hahahahahaha It's not gonna get ya very far so ya might as well give it to me. I know I just rambled on and one, and I don't care for the moment about comma places lol. Bye all.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Multimedia message
My husband picked this rose from our rose bush. It came from the first bush he bought. It was nothing but a stick when I planted it in the grouid. The bugs ate them in the late summer, but they are coming out now. I guess a last little bit of color, before old man winter shows his face.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Tad and I went to the hotel down the street, and used the pool and hot tub for a fee. It was great. I love soaking in the hot water. We had the pool almost to ourselves. It was a nice way to end the weekend. I thought about going to the YMCA, and using their hot tub, but I wanted my guy with me. Next week we celebrate our first wedding anniversary. Time sure does fly when your having fun.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
ymca
We joined the Ymca a week ago. Tyler and I went there today. We were going to swim,but the pool hours are real crappy for kids during the school year. Tyler played in the adventure center in 7up care. It's totally free while the parents work out. I walked on the treadmill and then I ran into a old friend. After I talked to her, and checked on Tyler. I walked on the walking track for a few laps. I was amazed at the new equipment. I didn't use one of the new ones though. You could literly watch tv while you worked out. I could see one lady was watching, Rachel Ray, while on the treadmill. I was thinking how can you watch about food. Wouldn't that make ya hungry? Guess Ymca keeps ya as a member, because you get real hungry lol.
I love the ymca, but it is a little expensive, and it becomes a issue of time sometimes. I loved going there when I didn't have a job. It was my job.
They even got a whirlpool, and alot of stuff they used to charge extra for now is free. Well not free, but included in the price. Bye for now.
I love the ymca, but it is a little expensive, and it becomes a issue of time sometimes. I loved going there when I didn't have a job. It was my job.
They even got a whirlpool, and alot of stuff they used to charge extra for now is free. Well not free, but included in the price. Bye for now.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Multimedia message
These pictures are from Rock Valley College. They look a lot better in person. You can really see the coloring of the leaves changing. I can't believe I am at mid terms already. I had a test in my std class. (a class to prepare you for college) I only go there on Mondays. My english 99 class meets three times a week. It's been a challenge, but it's going ok. I find it interesting to be around so many young kids. By kids I mean 18 year olds. I had to write two papers for that class. Plus reading a book called, There are no children here. It's a book about two boys who grew up in the other America. It's a true story, and pretty depressing. The teacher is great. He is a little bit of a nut. Also he isn't bad to look at. Well enough for now.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Friday, October 10, 2008
Do you ever wonder why?
Do you ever wonder why?
There isn't seat belts on school buses, but they are in airplanes? I say it's to save money on the cost of the bus, but isn't the chance of living better on the bus. With the seat belt on the air plane... I guess you can scream why you are strap to the seat burning up.
Who came first the chicken or the egg?
How anyone ever made it through life without computers?
Why the kids in grade school get the day off for student improvement day? Shouldn't they be at school to improve them?
Do you wonder why men cheat?
Do you wonder why there are holes in donuts?
Do you wonder why dogs eat poop and throw up, and everything else they can find on a walk?
How come Santa quit bringing me presents?
Why does my cat act like we don't feed it?
Do you wonder why more'sex', why now?
Do you wonder, why your parents told you stuff to scare you?
Why do cats have nine lives?
I wonder why, I am the way I am?
I wonder why they call you bitch?
I wonder why your child is so bad? When mine is not?
I wonder why when you get old.. you get ugly looking?
I wonder why I can't go home?
I wonder why most my pets are black? mmmm does that mean I am evil?
I wonder why my husband doesn't give me lots of money?
I wonder why the sunset is purple?
Do you wonder why Sammy barks a lot?
Do you wonder why kids have to grow up?
Do you wonder why the leaves go away?
Do you wonder why fish breath water, and people breathe air?
I wonder why someone stole my fish tank many years ago?
I wonder why a shark can't sleep, and how does it rest?
I wonder why the titanic sunk? In the movie they say it's unsinkable.
How come a country record played backwards fixes my life? How come I keep playing them backwards?
Do you wonder why pickles don't have calories?
Do you wonder why everyone calls you a witch, but your broom won't fly?
Do you wonder why your dog can't be as cute as mine?
Do you wonder why my husband won't buy clothes?
Do you wonder why your nose and ears never stop growing??? I bet your gonna go check to see if they are bigger than they used to be.
Do you wonder why you can't kiss your elbow? And did you know that if you can kiss your elbow. You will change from a boy to a girl, or a girl to a boy. I see you now, trying to kiss your elbow. I can't blame the boys for wanting to be girls. One word. Multiple.
There isn't seat belts on school buses, but they are in airplanes? I say it's to save money on the cost of the bus, but isn't the chance of living better on the bus. With the seat belt on the air plane... I guess you can scream why you are strap to the seat burning up.
Who came first the chicken or the egg?
How anyone ever made it through life without computers?
Why the kids in grade school get the day off for student improvement day? Shouldn't they be at school to improve them?
Do you wonder why men cheat?
Do you wonder why there are holes in donuts?
Do you wonder why dogs eat poop and throw up, and everything else they can find on a walk?
How come Santa quit bringing me presents?
Why does my cat act like we don't feed it?
Do you wonder why more'sex', why now?
Do you wonder, why your parents told you stuff to scare you?
Why do cats have nine lives?
I wonder why, I am the way I am?
I wonder why they call you bitch?
I wonder why your child is so bad? When mine is not?
I wonder why when you get old.. you get ugly looking?
I wonder why I can't go home?
I wonder why most my pets are black? mmmm does that mean I am evil?
I wonder why my husband doesn't give me lots of money?
I wonder why the sunset is purple?
Do you wonder why Sammy barks a lot?
Do you wonder why kids have to grow up?
Do you wonder why the leaves go away?
Do you wonder why fish breath water, and people breathe air?
I wonder why someone stole my fish tank many years ago?
I wonder why a shark can't sleep, and how does it rest?
I wonder why the titanic sunk? In the movie they say it's unsinkable.
How come a country record played backwards fixes my life? How come I keep playing them backwards?
Do you wonder why pickles don't have calories?
Do you wonder why everyone calls you a witch, but your broom won't fly?
Do you wonder why your dog can't be as cute as mine?
Do you wonder why my husband won't buy clothes?
Do you wonder why your nose and ears never stop growing??? I bet your gonna go check to see if they are bigger than they used to be.
Do you wonder why you can't kiss your elbow? And did you know that if you can kiss your elbow. You will change from a boy to a girl, or a girl to a boy. I see you now, trying to kiss your elbow. I can't blame the boys for wanting to be girls. One word. Multiple.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
My client seems to be doing better. I hope he continues to improve. I hate seeing him sick. Sandy* is doing well too. Some days they sleep till noon or so, but when your 97 years old. You can do that. Lately I have been able to get online at work. I am in a warm spot. haha Meaning it's not a very good connection, but it's better than nothing. I also have a tv in my bedroom. Only thing I could ask for my was family, and my pets. Ann running though their place wouldn't really be a good thing.
Well I think I will go take a little nap before I go to school. Bye for now.
Well I think I will go take a little nap before I go to school. Bye for now.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Monday, October 6, 2008
Sunday, October 5, 2008
We has a pretty good weekend off from work. It's always nice to spend time with my guy. Okay almost always nice. Sometimes I need him to work so, I can watch lifetime. He keeps talking about finding another home for my new little kitty, but I don't want to. I know we are crazy with so many animals.
My clients are still getting worse. Bob* has of lately did quit falling down, but is having trouble breathing, and been throwing up. He goes to the doc, and they don't seem to do much for him. I guess it's part of the CHF that he has. I don't want him to die, but he is suffering so much. That sometimes I just wished he would. I hope not on my shift though. All of us caregivers say that though. I would rather him go in his sleep then at the hospital, and everyone would be yelling cold blue, and kicking everyone out. Hello!!!! Dudes the guy is 97 years old!! Can ya tell I have been with a client when they yelled cold blue? It's not a fun thing to go through.
Sandy* fell in the garage while I was gone. (that's what I was told over the phone) Ouch that had to hurt. She is probably okay. She is the strong one. She don't talk about dieing. It's not something you hear from her much.
Well I better get ready for work. bye all.
*fake names
My clients are still getting worse. Bob* has of lately did quit falling down, but is having trouble breathing, and been throwing up. He goes to the doc, and they don't seem to do much for him. I guess it's part of the CHF that he has. I don't want him to die, but he is suffering so much. That sometimes I just wished he would. I hope not on my shift though. All of us caregivers say that though. I would rather him go in his sleep then at the hospital, and everyone would be yelling cold blue, and kicking everyone out. Hello!!!! Dudes the guy is 97 years old!! Can ya tell I have been with a client when they yelled cold blue? It's not a fun thing to go through.
Sandy* fell in the garage while I was gone. (that's what I was told over the phone) Ouch that had to hurt. She is probably okay. She is the strong one. She don't talk about dieing. It's not something you hear from her much.
Well I better get ready for work. bye all.
*fake names
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
lunch date
I had this date with this wonderful, cute guy. He was so excited to see me. We didn't have a long time to enjoy each other, and our lunch, but it was great. I bet my husband is going to be jealous. I am so glad that Tyler, still likes to see me at school. Got ya!! What were all you thinking? Time for class now. Bye all.
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