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Saturday, November 29, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008
We had a pretty good day. Tad, my sister, my boys, and myself went to pizza hut for lunch. Then we just kind of hung out at home. No fights so that was cool. Then before I took the kids to their Dad's, we went to the YMCA. We played a little air hockey, a little pig pong, the kids played on the wii, and I played a few rounds on the dance dance revolution. Tyler played a game of fooseball with another little boy.
Next week Will will be getting a orientation of the YMCA machines. So he will be able to use the weights and treadmills and stuff. The Y is a great place to work out, get out of the cold, do a few different things then being stuck at home.
Martin and me
Here is a picture of Martin and myself. He is pretty old, and doesn't do much anymore. Sometimes he still plays with the young cats,but mostly just sleeps and demands his meals. I am happy that we still have him. He must be about 18 years old.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
There isn't too much going around here. We are having a small Thanksgiving dinner tomorrow, because I have to work the holiday. I would rather be home, but it's really good money. Also we are going out to the club for dinner. I can't beat double pay, and I get to eat.
I screwed up and didn't register for classes. I am overwhelmed, and not sure of where my next step in life is. I am thinking a degree in social services, but it's going to take me years, because I have to work full time to support this household, and I am still always broke.
I just paid my first full monthly payment to the Ymca. So far it's worth it. Tyler and I have been going about twice a week. I would go more if I had a normal job. It really makes keeps me from getting too down. That and not looking in the mail box helps too.
I miss my at&t phone. It had a great camera, and I could send pictures to this blog from anywhere I was. My new phone has a camera, but it's not as good. Plus there is extra steps in posting pictures here. My bunny is growing so fast. Ann is still getting her walks even though it's cold outside.
Well I got to get going for work. Bye all.
I screwed up and didn't register for classes. I am overwhelmed, and not sure of where my next step in life is. I am thinking a degree in social services, but it's going to take me years, because I have to work full time to support this household, and I am still always broke.
I just paid my first full monthly payment to the Ymca. So far it's worth it. Tyler and I have been going about twice a week. I would go more if I had a normal job. It really makes keeps me from getting too down. That and not looking in the mail box helps too.
I miss my at&t phone. It had a great camera, and I could send pictures to this blog from anywhere I was. My new phone has a camera, but it's not as good. Plus there is extra steps in posting pictures here. My bunny is growing so fast. Ann is still getting her walks even though it's cold outside.
Well I got to get going for work. Bye all.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
About a year and half ago, I started working for Bob and Sandy. They were 96 years of age. They now are 97. Sandy will be 98 in Febuary, and Bob will be 98 in June. I didn't expect such a long run with them. They are like that engizer bunny that keeps going and going and going. They are strong. They may think that they are lucky that they have me, but the joke is on them. I am the lucky one. A job doesn't get much better than this. Well it's time for me to go to sleep now. Bye all.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Married with children.. my thoughts on my split family
I married my first husband young. We were only 18 and 19 years of age. I loved him, but mostly I was just seeking attention, and wanted to move out of my Mom's house. We quickly fell into a pattern of not really talking to each other. He worked one shift and I worked the other shift. We didn't rely on a babysitter too much. My mother n law liked to have the kids on Saturday nights and, we would drive them to church, and back. Then we would all have lunch and spend part of the day with her. We didn't have cable mostly, and my husband would catch up on TV shows that his Mom would tape for her. By march of 2000, we had our second son, Tyler. My husband only wanted one child, but I pushed for a second at least. So on March 16Th, 2000, Tyler was born.
Tyler was special needs, and needed a lot of extra help. That all fell on my shoulders. My husband worked more hours than me, and I worked the evening shift, and most therapy's are in the day. Tyler has come a long way. My husband and I, made mistakes that make the bond of marriage even more strained. We became two people, who lived together and had kids together. We didn't see eye to eye on a lot of stuff. We didn't fight much, because I just let stuff happen. Just because we weren't fighting, didn't mean we were happy.
In the summer of 2006, my husband moved out, and neither of us looked back. We didn't try to save the marriage. It had been over with for a long time. Because I was already in a relationship with Tad, he moved in pretty fast. It wasn't the right thing to do, but Tad was being kicked from his place, and needed a place to stay and could help pay bills.
Tad and I married Oct 24 of last year. I love him very much. He became the person who would watch the kids while I work. That worked while we were renting, but not after we got the house. So he had to work.
William didn't take to us buying the house and getting married. It was another reminder that I am not married to his Dad. He started acting out and not listening and being hard to deal with. In January, I agreed he could go live with his Dad. I thought that would fix things, but in a sense it's made things worse. Tad can be a fun guy. He likes to do crazy stuff, like exploring areas like the old drive in theater, the big water hole, lighting of fireworks. All that fun stuff that I don't have the urge to do. Tad isn't like his Dad. They are very different. His Dad likes wrestling, darts, going to church. Dad likes to go to things, like the waterfront, Great America, and live wrestling events. Tad would much prefer to stay away from all that. Tad is a more involved Dad. His kids can talk to him about stuff, and Dad is more likely to not talk. You might have to pull his teeth. He is a very quiet and maybe even a little anti social, unless you can talk about something, he really likes. Dad treats Will better than Tyler. He doesn't pay much attention to him. He doesn't really call him. He sees him every other weekend, and that's about it. Tad and Dad are very different, but that doesn't make Dad any less of a important person in my kids lives.
Tad treats Will and Tyler very different. Tyler he has accepted almost as his own. He is very good with him. He helps him do homework, cooks him dinner, sees that he has clean clothes, and goes to lunch at his school. He finds babysitters for Tyler while he works. (we can't find a daycare that will accept him as part-time, without full time pay) He brings him little presents, like cool rocks.
He treats Will pretty badly. If Will talks about something that they like, that is stupid. If Will says they have a computer or cable, Tad says no you don't. If Will says, him and his Dad do stuff, he says no you don't. If Will says his house is clean, Tad says no it isn't. Now I seen Bill's and Will's place. It wasn't clean,but I still don't see the need to constant talking down to Will. Now he is a teenager, and doesn't really accept Tad in his life. I will admit Will can act like a jerk. Instead of talking to him, like a adult,Tad talks to him like he is a teenager. He is poking him and trying to fight with him. I don't mean fight personally, just pushes him on.
He is always hearing Tad trash talk his Dad, and wants respect from Will. I know Will might not always be telling the truth about what goes on at their place, but is it really worth fighting over. Do we care if they have a computer? Or if they have cable? Or that they like video games? Aren't we fighting over stupid crap? Do I have a adult and a teenager both fighting like teenagers? Yes I do.
He also does this with Tyler around. How long before Tyler turns on Tad, because he doesn't like hearing his Dad being trashed. This isn't always said to Tyler, but he can hear. Even if what he says about their Dad is true, they don't need to hear it over and over. They will learn that their Dad isn't perfect on their own, but then again who is. Is it wrong if Will isn't like Tad? No. Is it wrong if Will is like Dad? It's okay with me if he has Dad's same interest. But I think Tad sees a mini Dad in Will, so he can't get past the Dad in Will. He has bad feelings for my ex, and carries them over in the child.
Yesterday was Will's birthday. I came up with this idea at the last minute to throw him a pizza party at our house. I was talking a couple friends from where he lives. We have never met them. I have heard of them, but never met them. Tad wasn't going to allow it. He didn't want people he don't know here. So I took Will, his friend, and Tyler out to Golden Coral. We had a nice dinner. Tad brought a cake for us to have. It turned out okay, but I was still upset on how he treated my idea.
Going back to Tyler's birthday party. He invited his ex wife at the last minute, and I didn't have a chance to say okay or not. She brings her boyfriend, who we never met. He had dinner with us too. It was okay. Tad never said a thing about her bringing someone we don't know.
Going back to when my sister moved in. This girl we don't know helped her move in. He didn't say anything about that. She has been back a couple times, and I still don't really know her. It don't bother me and don't bother Tad. So we are talking about having a early Thanksgiving Dinner, and he tells my sister, she can bring a friend. He didn't tell her that we have to know them first. How come everyone can bring someone they don't know, but when it comes to my son, I can't do that. It's a bunch of bull shit. We have had plenty of kids in our house that we didn't know until we started talking to them. Tad says that Dad should help pay for Will's birthday celebration. Now I wanted to do something for his birthday, he is my kid after all. Dad is taking him somewhere Sunday for his Birthday. Should I send money? No.
When it comes to Tyler, Tad doesn't ever say that Dad should pay for half. Dad doesn't ask money of me, and I don't ask of it from him.
Tad and his first wife stayed married until after the kids were grown, so we don't have to deal with step kids coming, and spending the night. I never had to be a authority figure, and tell them to do their homework, to go to bed, no you can't use the computer, to go outside and play. I didn't have to tell them to clean up their rooms or who they could and couldn't hang with. Did they have a better life, because their parents stayed together? I don't know. I have heard some horror stories, they had to deal with, but they aren't my stories to tell. Maybe the hard part in divorce isn't the divorce, but the remarriage of new people. Should I start throwing the horror stories in their face? No way!! I would never do that. That wouldn't be right to them. They know what they went through as kids, and came out pretty good, and love both their parents. It's not my place to trash the other parent. Maybe I am trashing their Dad, but this has nothing to do with how he raised them. This has to do with what kind of example he is providing for my children. All I want is the same. Give me the same respect that his kids get from me. Lastly for everyone in a split family. Remember if you are drowning. I am going to save my kid. I can get another husband. I can't get another Will or Tyler.
Tyler was special needs, and needed a lot of extra help. That all fell on my shoulders. My husband worked more hours than me, and I worked the evening shift, and most therapy's are in the day. Tyler has come a long way. My husband and I, made mistakes that make the bond of marriage even more strained. We became two people, who lived together and had kids together. We didn't see eye to eye on a lot of stuff. We didn't fight much, because I just let stuff happen. Just because we weren't fighting, didn't mean we were happy.
In the summer of 2006, my husband moved out, and neither of us looked back. We didn't try to save the marriage. It had been over with for a long time. Because I was already in a relationship with Tad, he moved in pretty fast. It wasn't the right thing to do, but Tad was being kicked from his place, and needed a place to stay and could help pay bills.
Tad and I married Oct 24 of last year. I love him very much. He became the person who would watch the kids while I work. That worked while we were renting, but not after we got the house. So he had to work.
William didn't take to us buying the house and getting married. It was another reminder that I am not married to his Dad. He started acting out and not listening and being hard to deal with. In January, I agreed he could go live with his Dad. I thought that would fix things, but in a sense it's made things worse. Tad can be a fun guy. He likes to do crazy stuff, like exploring areas like the old drive in theater, the big water hole, lighting of fireworks. All that fun stuff that I don't have the urge to do. Tad isn't like his Dad. They are very different. His Dad likes wrestling, darts, going to church. Dad likes to go to things, like the waterfront, Great America, and live wrestling events. Tad would much prefer to stay away from all that. Tad is a more involved Dad. His kids can talk to him about stuff, and Dad is more likely to not talk. You might have to pull his teeth. He is a very quiet and maybe even a little anti social, unless you can talk about something, he really likes. Dad treats Will better than Tyler. He doesn't pay much attention to him. He doesn't really call him. He sees him every other weekend, and that's about it. Tad and Dad are very different, but that doesn't make Dad any less of a important person in my kids lives.
Tad treats Will and Tyler very different. Tyler he has accepted almost as his own. He is very good with him. He helps him do homework, cooks him dinner, sees that he has clean clothes, and goes to lunch at his school. He finds babysitters for Tyler while he works. (we can't find a daycare that will accept him as part-time, without full time pay) He brings him little presents, like cool rocks.
He treats Will pretty badly. If Will talks about something that they like, that is stupid. If Will says they have a computer or cable, Tad says no you don't. If Will says, him and his Dad do stuff, he says no you don't. If Will says his house is clean, Tad says no it isn't. Now I seen Bill's and Will's place. It wasn't clean,but I still don't see the need to constant talking down to Will. Now he is a teenager, and doesn't really accept Tad in his life. I will admit Will can act like a jerk. Instead of talking to him, like a adult,Tad talks to him like he is a teenager. He is poking him and trying to fight with him. I don't mean fight personally, just pushes him on.
He is always hearing Tad trash talk his Dad, and wants respect from Will. I know Will might not always be telling the truth about what goes on at their place, but is it really worth fighting over. Do we care if they have a computer? Or if they have cable? Or that they like video games? Aren't we fighting over stupid crap? Do I have a adult and a teenager both fighting like teenagers? Yes I do.
He also does this with Tyler around. How long before Tyler turns on Tad, because he doesn't like hearing his Dad being trashed. This isn't always said to Tyler, but he can hear. Even if what he says about their Dad is true, they don't need to hear it over and over. They will learn that their Dad isn't perfect on their own, but then again who is. Is it wrong if Will isn't like Tad? No. Is it wrong if Will is like Dad? It's okay with me if he has Dad's same interest. But I think Tad sees a mini Dad in Will, so he can't get past the Dad in Will. He has bad feelings for my ex, and carries them over in the child.
Yesterday was Will's birthday. I came up with this idea at the last minute to throw him a pizza party at our house. I was talking a couple friends from where he lives. We have never met them. I have heard of them, but never met them. Tad wasn't going to allow it. He didn't want people he don't know here. So I took Will, his friend, and Tyler out to Golden Coral. We had a nice dinner. Tad brought a cake for us to have. It turned out okay, but I was still upset on how he treated my idea.
Going back to Tyler's birthday party. He invited his ex wife at the last minute, and I didn't have a chance to say okay or not. She brings her boyfriend, who we never met. He had dinner with us too. It was okay. Tad never said a thing about her bringing someone we don't know.
Going back to when my sister moved in. This girl we don't know helped her move in. He didn't say anything about that. She has been back a couple times, and I still don't really know her. It don't bother me and don't bother Tad. So we are talking about having a early Thanksgiving Dinner, and he tells my sister, she can bring a friend. He didn't tell her that we have to know them first. How come everyone can bring someone they don't know, but when it comes to my son, I can't do that. It's a bunch of bull shit. We have had plenty of kids in our house that we didn't know until we started talking to them. Tad says that Dad should help pay for Will's birthday celebration. Now I wanted to do something for his birthday, he is my kid after all. Dad is taking him somewhere Sunday for his Birthday. Should I send money? No.
When it comes to Tyler, Tad doesn't ever say that Dad should pay for half. Dad doesn't ask money of me, and I don't ask of it from him.
Tad and his first wife stayed married until after the kids were grown, so we don't have to deal with step kids coming, and spending the night. I never had to be a authority figure, and tell them to do their homework, to go to bed, no you can't use the computer, to go outside and play. I didn't have to tell them to clean up their rooms or who they could and couldn't hang with. Did they have a better life, because their parents stayed together? I don't know. I have heard some horror stories, they had to deal with, but they aren't my stories to tell. Maybe the hard part in divorce isn't the divorce, but the remarriage of new people. Should I start throwing the horror stories in their face? No way!! I would never do that. That wouldn't be right to them. They know what they went through as kids, and came out pretty good, and love both their parents. It's not my place to trash the other parent. Maybe I am trashing their Dad, but this has nothing to do with how he raised them. This has to do with what kind of example he is providing for my children. All I want is the same. Give me the same respect that his kids get from me. Lastly for everyone in a split family. Remember if you are drowning. I am going to save my kid. I can get another husband. I can't get another Will or Tyler.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
At Rock Valley, it's been multicultural week. My std 100 class, we had to bring something that was related to cultural, and our upbringing. I thought about bringing a cd of love that old time Rock n Roll. I remember my Mom dancing to that music, but instead I brought my cabbage patch doll. There came out when My sister and I were growing up. It was so cool to have one. They were the toy you just had to have. It's weird how you spend so many holidays with your parents, and very little gifts stand out. Not that we didn't get gifts, but just don't remember them all. My last baby doll was called baby talk, and my mom said, I was too old for a doll, but I didn't listen. Well the advertising jipped me. The darn doll couldn't carry a conversation lol. Then some cousins of mine destroyed the doll. I put a doll on layaway at this really cool doll shop. I should have her in a few weeks. I will never be too old for a doll. Just don't really need one that will talk. lol. Well back on the multicultural week. Monday, they had corn beef, cabbage, and little red potatoes. Today they had the Mexican food. I wonder what they will have on Friday. They are having food every day, but I only go to school on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.
Today I walked my Ann and my sister's dog, and my cat. My kitty cat followed us for the whole walk. Before dinner, Tyler and I went to the YMCA. I walked around on the track and then sat in the hot tub. I been going there two times a week. So far I can justify spending the money, but don't know if I can afford to keep it. I made chicken noodle soup for dinner. Tad is going to have to make my potato soup now. Well it's Tj's bedtime. Bye all.
Today I walked my Ann and my sister's dog, and my cat. My kitty cat followed us for the whole walk. Before dinner, Tyler and I went to the YMCA. I walked around on the track and then sat in the hot tub. I been going there two times a week. So far I can justify spending the money, but don't know if I can afford to keep it. I made chicken noodle soup for dinner. Tad is going to have to make my potato soup now. Well it's Tj's bedtime. Bye all.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
William
I notice that I really don't post much about Will. It's not because, I don't love him. He lives with his Dad now, and Will is at that age, where there is a lot of fighting. I may discuss what's going on with my sister, Tammy, but I refuse to post his issues for everybody to see.
Will is going to be 14 years old, on Nov 21st. Kids grow fast. I think about the age of 12 so, a alien comes in and steals your child, and leaves you with the creature from outer space. Then they are up above and laughing their ass off. I am not sure what point your real kids return.
I am not sure what I am doing for his Birthday. I am not much into Birthday celebrations. We weren't really raised to make a big deal out of them. Maybe take him to dinner or something. Maybe go to a movie or go bowling. I am sure we will make him a yummy cake. Any ideas?
Will is going to be 14 years old, on Nov 21st. Kids grow fast. I think about the age of 12 so, a alien comes in and steals your child, and leaves you with the creature from outer space. Then they are up above and laughing their ass off. I am not sure what point your real kids return.
I am not sure what I am doing for his Birthday. I am not much into Birthday celebrations. We weren't really raised to make a big deal out of them. Maybe take him to dinner or something. Maybe go to a movie or go bowling. I am sure we will make him a yummy cake. Any ideas?
I was renting a computer for school, and it was costing us a fortune. My step daughter told us about this cool place named Homeplace, and they sell you items on a payment plan. I now have a new laptop and plus I got a set of bunk beds for the kids. My payment is the same as it was when I just was renting the laptop. Tyler doesn't know about his new beds yet. They are delivering them today. I wish I would be here when he sees them. Well I got to get Tyler to the bus, and help Tad get rid of his old bed. Then I am off to work. Bye all.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
my weekend
I had a pretty good weekend. After Tyler got home, we went to the Ymca for swimming. I had to pull his arm for him to want to go. He wanted to play with his friend, but I wanted to do something fun with him. He is getting at the age where friends are beginning to be cooler than his Mom. So we went swimming for a hour, and then he played blowing on a wii machine with this little girl. Then him and I played a game of air hockey. He beat me by one point. We had a good time. Then I drove him to his Dad's for the weekend.
Friday night, Tad and I had fish at Sam's restaurant. It was really good. After that we just hung out at home with our crew of animals. It's impossible to sleep in because, all the animals get this surge of energy in the morning, and the garbage is their playground.
Saturday afternoon, I went to the Y again. I took my homework and my laptop. I did a little homework in the locker room. That sounds goofy, but it's a room with tables, in the locker room, and it's a good place to have it quiet. After the school work, I exercised for 35 minutes, and watched part of a movie. It's almost worth staying on longer to watch the TV. You would think I don't have a TV at home. I really do though. Then I went to soak in the hot tub. I really love that. It makes paying for the Ymca really worth it. Tyler and I go about twice a week. If I don't go. I can't justify spending the money, because I really can't afford it. I also have exercise equipment in the dark basement, but I haven't really been using it. I like getting out and being around people, watching movies, and don't forget the hot tub. So I will pay for it, as long as I can afford it, and I make the effort to go.
Oh also lastly, I got kicked from a website because, they didn't like what I had to say. I feel like such a trouble maker. haha. I have never been kicked from anywhere, because I am a good girl.
I forgot to mention that I made my husband a really good dinner last night. I am trying to butter him up, so he will make me my favorite soup. Tomorrow I am making him chicken noodle to add to his guilt. bye all
Friday night, Tad and I had fish at Sam's restaurant. It was really good. After that we just hung out at home with our crew of animals. It's impossible to sleep in because, all the animals get this surge of energy in the morning, and the garbage is their playground.
Saturday afternoon, I went to the Y again. I took my homework and my laptop. I did a little homework in the locker room. That sounds goofy, but it's a room with tables, in the locker room, and it's a good place to have it quiet. After the school work, I exercised for 35 minutes, and watched part of a movie. It's almost worth staying on longer to watch the TV. You would think I don't have a TV at home. I really do though. Then I went to soak in the hot tub. I really love that. It makes paying for the Ymca really worth it. Tyler and I go about twice a week. If I don't go. I can't justify spending the money, because I really can't afford it. I also have exercise equipment in the dark basement, but I haven't really been using it. I like getting out and being around people, watching movies, and don't forget the hot tub. So I will pay for it, as long as I can afford it, and I make the effort to go.
Oh also lastly, I got kicked from a website because, they didn't like what I had to say. I feel like such a trouble maker. haha. I have never been kicked from anywhere, because I am a good girl.
I forgot to mention that I made my husband a really good dinner last night. I am trying to butter him up, so he will make me my favorite soup. Tomorrow I am making him chicken noodle to add to his guilt. bye all
Friday, November 14, 2008
It's Friday!!!! I don't have work for 2 days. I love the weekends. I am going to have a early lunch with my friend, Rachel, and then go to class. Then I get to hang out with my husband and all my pets. Well I have to get ready to leave one home to go to another. I have two homes. That has it's good points and bad points, but I have love at both homes, so it's pretty good. Bye all.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
I blew off registering for the Spring classes. I am sure I can still get into a English 101 class, but who knows what other classes I should take. The problem is that I don't know what I am chasing. I don't seeing how I can fit in a two year degree, with working full time, and being a Mom. I don't think I am the type of person who can only take a class or two a semester and remember what I been taught to get the degree. Not working isn't a option, and either is working less hours.
College is okay so far. My English teacher is really cute!!! Only four weeks of his teaching. Boy am I going to miss him. Maybe some of the other teachers are cute. haha
College is okay so far. My English teacher is really cute!!! Only four weeks of his teaching. Boy am I going to miss him. Maybe some of the other teachers are cute. haha
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
This is a picture of my new bunny. Not a very good picture though. Vote for her name.
Looks like the selling the parent vote was about 2 cents lol. Now I am afraid. What are some of the fast ones that you pulled with your parents. It's time to confess. I skipped most of the 7th grade year, and when the machine would call. I would just get the phone first, that's if my parents were home. I did the same thing in 8th grade, and no one knew or bothered to do anything until I was taken to court. I was busted!!!! Now tell me your secrets and vote for a bunny name.
I came home from school yesterday to find no one home. On Monday's Tyler tends to meet me at the drive way to get a toll for me to get in the driveway. I usually give him anything from .50 to a dollar or so. I called and they wouldn't tell me where they were.
So I am just sitting home, and I am feeling pretty sick from my allergies or cold, and then they come in. Tad was wearing his jacket and told me to reach in his coat. So I reached and there was something fuzzy and warm in his coat. It was a baby girl bunny. I have never had a baby bunny before. All my other one came to me as grown ups. All the other animals are trying to check her out. We want to try and make this one be able to roam the house more.
We haven't name her yet. I will post a picture and do a poll on a few suggestions and you all can vote for the best name. I still miss Roger and sad that he died. It's weird how fast death happens. A few hours before he died, he was eating baby food for me, and I had plans to take him to work, so I could continue to help him recover. My husband is so sweet to think of me and try to make me feel better. I will sell bunny kisses to you for 5 bucks!!!! Of course Tyler is sweet too! He was so excited to bring me home a new baby. Well I got to finish getting ready for work, and walk Ann. burrrrrr it's cold.
So I am just sitting home, and I am feeling pretty sick from my allergies or cold, and then they come in. Tad was wearing his jacket and told me to reach in his coat. So I reached and there was something fuzzy and warm in his coat. It was a baby girl bunny. I have never had a baby bunny before. All my other one came to me as grown ups. All the other animals are trying to check her out. We want to try and make this one be able to roam the house more.
We haven't name her yet. I will post a picture and do a poll on a few suggestions and you all can vote for the best name. I still miss Roger and sad that he died. It's weird how fast death happens. A few hours before he died, he was eating baby food for me, and I had plans to take him to work, so I could continue to help him recover. My husband is so sweet to think of me and try to make me feel better. I will sell bunny kisses to you for 5 bucks!!!! Of course Tyler is sweet too! He was so excited to bring me home a new baby. Well I got to finish getting ready for work, and walk Ann. burrrrrr it's cold.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Goodbye Roger Rest in peace
I took Roger to the vet this morning and he got a injection of antibiotic and a infection of fluids for a upper respiratory infection. He passed away, in my arms about 7 pm tonight. I tried to save him. I was giving him water, and baby food, since that was their advice. This really sucks. Where is my pill or drug, because this really sucks.
Friday, November 7, 2008
My bunny
My Bunny Rabbit, Roger isn't feeling well. It looked like maybe he had a stroke, and there's not much that can be done. Tonight I tried to give him water, and it looks like maybe his teeth are overgrown. I really can't afford expensive tests, but if the vet thinks that the reason for him not eating is his teeth that should be affordable. I spooned fed him water, so maybe if I keep doing that he will make it till the morning. This really sucks!!!
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
2 years
This month marks my two year anniversary as a caregiver for the elderly. I have been with the same clients for about a year and half. In the last year and half on a occasion I have went to another clients home, but mostly I just do my live-in shifts with who I call Bob and Sandy. They are both doing well for their age. They are pushing 98 years of age. They just voted in what I would think is going to be their last presidental election. They lived long enough to see a black voted into office. What a life!! I have seen a lot of clients die. Not personally, but one day they are my client, and the next day they are dead. It kind of sucks.
A lot has happened in the last two years. 2 years ago this month, I was in the final process of my divorce from my first husband. I bought a house and a new/used car. None of that could I have done if my new husband wasn't helping me. Also I got married to my new husband. I now have two step kids. I don't know what role a step parent really does. In the movies, she is the bitch, and the step kids would be cleaning the floor over and over. lol. I think that only happens on Cinderella. The step kids get treated bad and the "real" kids to the Mom can do no wrong. My step kids have never lived with me so it's not any one's fault that their really isn't a step parent/step kid relationship.It's not that I don't care for them. They are great. I grew up in a split home and they aren't really missing anything. That may sound cruel for Tad, but I was a teenager, and it wasn't fun. They live in a split home and my husband is a Step Dad. He is helping raising them and has the role of a parent. Even Will and Tyler have the different relationship with the same step parent. Tyler is more accepting, because he is young. Will on the other hand, is a teenager and hasn't been as a accepting. The rules are different and Dad, and Tad are very different. Also maybe teenagers feel as if they accept the new role, then they are accepting of their parents split. It don't help if "Dad" doesn't like "Tad" , Because now if we like Tad, we are betraying Dad.
Also lately my mind is on overdrive. Is their a pill or a drug to cure it? I am struggling with my feelings of grief and sorrow over missing out on being a mother to the daughter, I was forced to place for adoption. I can't get better, because I can't accept that it was the right thing to do. I was grown enough to take care of my brother and sister, and I don't mean the once in a great while thing. I mean I remember a summer where my break from them was going for a salad and a drink to get away from them. Mom was gone that much. I mean getting left with food stamps and buying junk food, because their wasn't a parent around to take care of us. I was the parent. Ashley will be coming of age next year and I suppose that has sent me into a panic. Well the rest is for my other blog. Also this year Will has went to go live with his Dad. He thinks the grass is greener on the other side. His Dad thought Will's bad grades were do to my parenting and the school. Well Will still has bad grades. I guess he needs a kick in the ass!! It didn't work buddy.
In the past two years we have lost Tigger, Little Dogi, Silver moved to the neighbors. We have added Ann, Sammy, Marty, and Snacky, but I prefer calling him Tiger. Also my sister and three pets for a while. Oh and I forgot we added two gerbils named Amy and Fuzzy. We have a lot of black animals, such as three cats, three dogs and Fuzzy.
Also Tyler and Will started new schools. For privacy reasons I won't put that down. Will is a 8th grader and Tyler is a 3rd grader. Will is your typical know it all teenager and Tyler is sweet and innocent. He does no wrong!! hahaha We live in a neighborhood full of girls. There are some cute,pretty little girls and Tyler is their friend. I wonder if one of them will be his first crush. Well this is long enough and I am going to go have lunch with Tyler. He still loves his Mommy to come to the school. Bye all
A lot has happened in the last two years. 2 years ago this month, I was in the final process of my divorce from my first husband. I bought a house and a new/used car. None of that could I have done if my new husband wasn't helping me. Also I got married to my new husband. I now have two step kids. I don't know what role a step parent really does. In the movies, she is the bitch, and the step kids would be cleaning the floor over and over. lol. I think that only happens on Cinderella. The step kids get treated bad and the "real" kids to the Mom can do no wrong. My step kids have never lived with me so it's not any one's fault that their really isn't a step parent/step kid relationship.It's not that I don't care for them. They are great. I grew up in a split home and they aren't really missing anything. That may sound cruel for Tad, but I was a teenager, and it wasn't fun. They live in a split home and my husband is a Step Dad. He is helping raising them and has the role of a parent. Even Will and Tyler have the different relationship with the same step parent. Tyler is more accepting, because he is young. Will on the other hand, is a teenager and hasn't been as a accepting. The rules are different and Dad, and Tad are very different. Also maybe teenagers feel as if they accept the new role, then they are accepting of their parents split. It don't help if "Dad" doesn't like "Tad" , Because now if we like Tad, we are betraying Dad.
Also lately my mind is on overdrive. Is their a pill or a drug to cure it? I am struggling with my feelings of grief and sorrow over missing out on being a mother to the daughter, I was forced to place for adoption. I can't get better, because I can't accept that it was the right thing to do. I was grown enough to take care of my brother and sister, and I don't mean the once in a great while thing. I mean I remember a summer where my break from them was going for a salad and a drink to get away from them. Mom was gone that much. I mean getting left with food stamps and buying junk food, because their wasn't a parent around to take care of us. I was the parent. Ashley will be coming of age next year and I suppose that has sent me into a panic. Well the rest is for my other blog. Also this year Will has went to go live with his Dad. He thinks the grass is greener on the other side. His Dad thought Will's bad grades were do to my parenting and the school. Well Will still has bad grades. I guess he needs a kick in the ass!! It didn't work buddy.
In the past two years we have lost Tigger, Little Dogi, Silver moved to the neighbors. We have added Ann, Sammy, Marty, and Snacky, but I prefer calling him Tiger. Also my sister and three pets for a while. Oh and I forgot we added two gerbils named Amy and Fuzzy. We have a lot of black animals, such as three cats, three dogs and Fuzzy.
Also Tyler and Will started new schools. For privacy reasons I won't put that down. Will is a 8th grader and Tyler is a 3rd grader. Will is your typical know it all teenager and Tyler is sweet and innocent. He does no wrong!! hahaha We live in a neighborhood full of girls. There are some cute,pretty little girls and Tyler is their friend. I wonder if one of them will be his first crush. Well this is long enough and I am going to go have lunch with Tyler. He still loves his Mommy to come to the school. Bye all
Monday, November 3, 2008
We had a great Halloween!! I am still learning how to post pictures with the new phone so no pictures right now. Tyler was Superman and Ann was batman!!! We all had a great time. Tyler was more interested in coming home and passing out candy. When we ran out. He started giving some of his own candy away. I thought it was so sweet of him. Will tricked or treated with some friends. I think he is a little old for that, but he lives with his Dad now so that's up to him. It's not a issue worth fighting over. Well not much going on here. Bye all.
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