Today, I didn't do some flea bombs in our house and left the cat in here. I didn't do it. She did it. She must have came back in. So, after spending over a hundred is the past week on frontline and bombs, I didn't kill the cat. She appears fine. I forgot to see if she has any fleas on her.

Today, was the three year mark of when we bought our house. It's an awesome feeling to own a piece of property that belongs to us. I would suggest home ownership to anyone who wants the stability of not moving around but don't let anyone tell you that it's cheaper than renting, because it is not.
Tonight was week two of ten weeks with Meld. I love babysitting the kids and I do it for free. The satisfaction that I get from helping the Mom's use this program was enough for me. This week, there was six kids. All but one was under two. The youngest was a boy who was only seven months old. So, there was three boys and three girls.. the brady bunch came to mind. lol I brought Tyler with me and he was really helpful. He actually held the biter girl for about ten minutes or so and read to her. I have never worked for a daycare and I have to give the workers so much credit. Taking care of one kid or two is so easy. However, taking care of six kids even with an helper is a lot of work. The brady bunch!!!

Tonight, I was feeling cooped up. I am not working and it gets to me. I want to get up and go. Tad suggested that I go swimming. So, I did. The best part of having a membership at the Ymca is that I pay it once a month and if I don't have money to do something it's always an option.

It's not odd for me to spend about two hours there. For six weeks the pool was closed and it really bugged me. I have discovered the lap pool. I really like the idea that I can really focus on swimming and not so afraid of drowning because at it's deepest it's only 5'9. I am hoping that it will help get my arms more in shape. Have you ever heard the expression... that you don't know what you have till it's gone? I think that's how it was with the pool. I used it once in a great while. I took it for granted. I have been in it more times this month than I probably have been in the whole six months of 2010. Not working kind of helps though. My work did call me and give me an 10 hour overnight on July 1St. So, oh boy, I can eat this week. hahaha.

Well, guys, it's late. Tomorrow, will be another day for the Ymca. Me and the water are having an affair.

Last night, I started volunteering for Meld again. There was a three week break and I admit that it was nice. There is a new volunteer working with me and so far, I think she is a little weird. She told a sob story about being pregnant at 30 and understanding where these girls are coming from. I don't think someone pregnant at 30 compares to the 14 to 21 crowd. I want to tell her to shut up. I had my three kids before I was 30 and while it's not her fault but still shut up. Then, she keeps talking about starting over. I said, what do you mean, starting over, your child is grown? She is talking about a grandson. Unless, you are raising your grandchild then you are not starting over. A new adventure, maybe? Hello.... the person is starting a new life is the parents of the baby.. There is no start overs. I will never be Ashley's Mom. Her friend, maybe.. but her Mom. No. So, shut up, lady.
I am all for grandparents wanting to visit and see their grandchildren, but they are your grandchildren. They are not your child. I know some grandparents who want to be overly involved. I am not talking about visiting here and there, but the ones who really try to step in and give way too much advice and allow their children to always drop their children off so they can do what they do. I know my ex mother n law did this with her daughter. She allowed her daughter to walk out on her children, because her children were her life and when they were grown they needed an replacement. So, lady, your not starting over. Quit, trying to compare yourself to young girls who are Mom's young.
Then, she acts like she didn't know what to do because the baby made a baby noise. What do I do? Um... play with him. That is a happy noise. Mom's know their kids best but I do know a happy noise when I hear one. Then, she asked about gloves.. she is afraid of getting hiv from the babies. Weird. I never thought that a little baby would infect me. Should I be worried. What a nut. It should be an interesting ten weeks.

Next week, we will celebrate three years in our home. I am still in love with my house. I still get excited when I think of home improvement projects. I wish I was more handy, because a lot of what I could do to change things is the labor. Right now, we need a new kitchen facet. It leaks and is a pain in the ass. I also need to lay a floor down in the living room. My goal would to be to get both of those done this summer. I think I can lay the floor, but plumbing. No way!
I have been unhappy with the upkeep of our back yard. I have never mowed and tonight, I gave it a try. It's not easy but since I am not working, I am going to make a good effort to fix it up. The idea that I own the land is part of the appeal. I did fall in some of the holes Ann dug but oh well. Sometimes, I wish that I didn't have a big dog to do that kind of stuff, but I love Ann. She is my favorite. I guess it's how Tigger was my favorite cat. I won't mention who my favorite child is.... hahahahaha I love them all.
I can't wait until I get my first check. It's not like I am starving or anything but I am used to my own money.

Hard day

I had a really hard day. First, I dropped Tj off at camp with money for hot dog, chips and a soda. Then, I went to the Y. I walked, rode a bike and then I went swimming in the lap pool for 30 mins. Then, It got really hard. I lied down in the sun and then I sat in the sauna.
When I was getting ready to leave Tj called, because of the upcoming storm.

Next Friday, I won't get paid. It's finally hitting home that I am without a job. I am officially still employed at Comfort Keepers but without a paycheck, it's not really a job. I went in there to change my availability around and I told them that I had five in my account and a house payment that is a month behind and zero hours. I said, "tell me what hours would get me hours and they couldn't say. I have a way with being an ass without being a total ass. I asked if I have done anything wrong and they said no, that they lost a lot of clients. It really ticks me off because if they don't give me hours and it's within my availability, I am considered on call without pay. Sometimes, I feel like they own me and they said no that the clients own us. Hello.. I am sitting without pay. And your here in this office with hours.
I am not the kind of person that just sits at home. Maybe once or twice a week, I can deal with not going anywhere but I like to get up and go. Now, I feel that I can't get up and go because I don't have money. It's not fair to have Tad giving me money so I can go have a good time. But what makes it hard is that emotionally, I am a lot better dealing with life if I don't just sit at home.
Tonight, I using some guest passes so my brother and sister can come swimming with me at the Ymca. After, tonight, I guess, I am going to have to be stuck. It always seems that I am broke around the summer time.
I have applied for unemployment and got a letter on when I call in. The amount I am going to get is gonna be about what I was making at my job. So, in the end, it should work out but getting there will suck. I don't call in for another week and then who knows how long it takes to get a check. This really sucks. In one way, I would be happy with getting hours again and working, but in another way, unemployment would be more reliable than my company.

It looks like I am unemployed. I am not fired or have i quit but I just don't have any hours. It hasn't really sunk in until Sunday past and that means that I won't have a paycheck on Friday. I hate depending on other people. At least most of my bills are in great shape though. It could be much worse.
I have been staying busy by going to the Ymca. I go to work out at least three times a week. Plus, the pool is open again and I love it even more so than before. I have even tried out the sauna and it's relaxing. It's not my hot tub, but it's still cool. Oops I mean hot.
My friend, Rachel, joined us today. We walked around for about an hour and then we were in the pool for three hours. They close at ten so, I didn't even have time to shower, because it takes me so long to brush my hair out.
Wednesday, I am bringing my little brother and sister to enjoy the pool. It should be fun too. I normally, go to workout in the morning or afternoon, but the night time is cool, because of less people. The times that the pool is open for open swim sucks during the school year, but the summer time it's cool, because it's not that big of a deal to keep kids out late. A couple of women were in the sauna and complaining of the pool times and for once I could say it's not so bad, because the kids can stay up later. I don't really like the idea that my kids are growing up but for this reason it's okay to be in the older Mommy club.
Tomorrow, I am going to sign Tyler up for camp and do some grocery shopping and just chill at home. I love having Will home but I crave the quietness of not having kids around. Tyler is still at that age that he will go out to play. I just love my neighborhood. I love my house. On the 28TH of this month marks our third year here. Owning my own home has been one of my wildest dreams come true. I went to an open house down the road and it did have it's nice things but it made me love my house even more. Well, it's about time to get my pillow, stuff dog, and curl up on the couch with my husband. I love him so much. I don't plan on letting him go away. We are for keeps.

Tad took a really cool picture of me. Normally, I wouldn't feel comfortable with a shot like this, but I am feeling better about myself, because between working out and eating a little better, I have lost 20 lbs! Yea for me!!!

Today, was the official start of summer vacation for Tyler. My plan is to educate him at home with the help of www.abcteach.com and along with some books that the school district sent home. Also, of course the use of computers and the library. I had him do a math test and he didn't score too well, but better than I would have expected. I think some of it is that he doesn't take the time to read the questions. I am excited for this chance to put his education in my hands and screw the schools teaching him. I don't care what they say. If a child doesn't have basic skills they can't go into more difficult math. I know how to read and write but me into school to learn how to do brain surgery and no matter how much help, I get. I am going to fail. Anyone want to let me practice on them?
After, we played the wii for a while, we got ready to go to the Ymca. I love Tyler's age. He is ten now and that is old enough to be dropped off at the Y, but I am not ready for that. However, it's nice that he can swim, play, and use a computer without me being with him at all times. Don't get me wrong. I love to hang with him, but I am trying to keep up my two hours of walking, three times a week at the Y. So, its cool that he can hang out and have fun too. My friend Rachel met me and we walked. I really miss the hot tub and wish I could switch to peak sportscore for the hot tub, but I like having a friend who has a membership too. I don't have to have someone with me to workout but it's nice having her there sometimes.

My clients canceled their service. Saturday, I worked five hours and unless I am called this week I have zero hours. Zero hours and zero pay...... what do you call that? Besides boredom that is... Am I unemployed?

I had a pretty good birthday. Tad made me a cake and handed it to me at 10 am. It seemed odd because who eats cake at ten am. We went through our day. No one ate any cake.
I gave Will some money to go into Kmart and buy me a present. I could tell that he was sad, because he didn't get me anything. So, they bought some more flowers for my yard.
The three of us ended up taking the cake to a cookout at my friend's Rachel's house. We had a lot of fun. There was a big water fight. Rachel put candles on the cake and I got a second birthday wish.
Would you believe that wishing for the same thing twice is the charm? I heard from a very special, beautiful girl on my birthday. Do you wonder who? Well, I am not telling. haha.
So, we ate at Rachel's and had cake and a water fight. My back hurts so bad. I don't know what I did. I am trying to take it easy today and I hope it gets better soon.

The boys and I rented some games for the wii. I picked I think it was called Shrek the third. I am not sure, but I was kicking some ass. I really liked the game. I am going to go re rent it again tomorrow. I thought I would have to start over again but Will said no. That the wii holds all the memory.Wow! That is very cool. Well, I need to lay back down. that is when I don't feel any pain. The rest of my muscles get so tense too. I got to go swimming yesterday but no hot tub still!!! Damn!!! However, I didn't run out of gas and my phone didn't die during the ordeal. haahahahaha