college

I went to college today, to take placement tests. I didn't score too well. Too many years out of school, makes me a dummy. Tad don't hit me for saying that. Guess I got some catching up to do.
All the animals are doing well, except for Dogi bumps into a lot of walls. Tad and I took a nap this afternoon, and we have Ann in her condo, Dogi and shadow and two cats fighting for space on the bed. The cats don' t think nothing of sleeping on you, or on your pillow.

Tomorrow starts another work week. I need a vacation. I have so much yard work to do this spring, not to mention cleaning up after Ann. She had found entertainment by tearing things up. Maybe we should have a clean up party. hahaha. Wonder how many takers we would have. We got trash, yard waste, dog poop, mowing to be done. Weeds to pulled out, need to plant seeds for new grass. Hard work in exchange for hot dogs on the grill. If ya'll work hard, we will throw in some soda. haha. Bye for now.

This is my brother, standing proudly in front of his new truck. He is a new driver, I am sure he will get better as the time passes. Until then I sure hope he don't back into my driveway again. I want to keep my fence. I am very happy for him. Bye for now.

There is somethings money can buy. For other things, there is mastercard. Tyler is able to read. There was a time when We didn't know if he would speak, but now he can read. Now that is priceless.

animals

Animals are great to have around. They love you, even when you don't love yourself. They don't hold a grudge. Won't remind you of the time you forgot to feed them. They won't tell anyone of your secrets. but the really said part is that they're lives are short. There are here to loves us, but their bodies give out on us, and that sparkle in their eyes are gone. It's very sad. It's hard on us to see them slipping away from us. It makes us very sad to let them go.

Little dogi is shaking. not good. It's very sad. Got to go.

Merry Christmas everyone.

my little break

I love Tad very much. But why is he is so argumentative?? How did his kids not kill him in his sleep. hahaha. Just kidding. He isn't that bad. He is pretty cool. Taking pretty good care of Tyler. I am missing them both right now, I miss Will too. Don't miss the fighting though.
My little old lady is getting her weekly session of pampering. Spoiled little lady. She yelled at me today. I can't get over it. I won't put up with being yelled at. I probably can forgive her, she probably won't remember why she was mad at me. This evening, we are going out to dinner with some family. Should be ok, but not my cup of tea. It sure does beat cooking though.
I am off for a couple days, starting tomorrow morning. Won't be due back till Sunday morning. We should have Will with us. I hope no fighting. It's bring me down. Life is too short to fight all the time.
The last couple days, I have been going over a math book. It's for home schooling, and geared towards middle school. I didn't notice my math skills were so poor. Thank you technology. It's making us all dumb. Spell check is a ex sample of that, and those stupid gps things in cars these days. Some people were born with a sense of direction, and let technology make them dumb, but I just wasn't never born with that. I figure who needs that, when I know, I would land a guy who could do it for me. haha. Now they are advertising depends as something to wear, when there might not be any bathrooms around. How crazy!!! One thing to be old, and pee yourself. It's another to just pee in your pants, because you don't have a bathroom close by. Well it's getting to be about the time to go. Bye for now.

Watch out my brother is driving now!!!

It's scary!! A new driver on the road. What is even scarier is that I taught him.. haha. He was having trouble, getting back and forth to work, and I said "I will teach you how to drive" He actually took me up on it. He got his licence about a month ago. Now has his own truck. What is ironic is that, I didn't get my licence until about 24 years of age, and that is how old he is now. I am so happy for him. So proud of him too!!

I think it will change his life so much. He doesn't even know it yet. But not only for the good. I hope he knows, driving can be a pain in the butt, especially when you get to depending on your car. Then it breaks. It makes me so sad, if my car breaks down. I think because of learning later in life. It bothers me more than others. If my car isn't running, I don't see a need to get out of bed. That's kind of bad. Before driving days, I would walk, take buses, get rides from people. But now if my car isn't working, either am I!!! I am so happy for my brother. I haven't personally seen his new truck yet. I was working when he came by to show it off. The truck was given to him. I think he was really in need for it, but I don't know if he will take care of it as good,if he had paid for it himself. I do worry about him driving. I would feel like if something happens to him, it's my fault because I taught him. But then again Tad taught me. I don't have any tickets, besides the one I got out of. Being female helps. judges go easier on us. :) I can renew my licence by mail. So Between Tad and I, maybe he will do just fine.

Well got to run, I bought Ann a new collar and leash.. She is going to be in the army. Last month she was a girlie girl in pink, now she is a tough Bitch in green. With a matching leash. Got to love her.

I wanted to add that at no point am I making fun of my brother. I am very proud, and happy for him.

I am very tired. Not sleeping well last few nights. I have to work, but don't feel like it. I have been working 80 hours a week, for the past two months. It's catching up to me. Still enjoy taking care of them. Just very tired. Making more money, but nothing more to show for it. The more you make, the more you spend. Well got to run.

Tad has a one track mind these days, can't say I am doing any bitching about it. Very cool!!! Got to love him. Bye for now.. Almost time for the little one to go to bed. bye for now

Tad's little dogi isn't feeling very well. It's very sad, but not much we can do about it. I don't think a vet could help any. Just take us for the money.
The easter bunny came and left Tyler a basket and a stuffed bunny. I worked today, but am home for downtime. Lunch out with my clients was better than normal. Where they tend to like to go, isn't my cup of tea. There was a bunch of us. Well got to run, it's time for dinner with my family now.

I had a very nice weekend with Tad. I love my new hours. Now I don't feel so overworked. Still same amount of hours, but I get a weekend off. Tad was really patient with me today. I was shopping for new clothes. Tomorrow I am going out with my clients for dinner. Going to be a big crowd of family.

Easter is tomorrow. Holidays don't mean as much as they used to. I don't know why. Maybe I don't want to admit it to anyone. I do my best for the kids though. I got Tyler this huge stuffed rabbit. He rode around in my car, and was showing over the window. I also picked up some candy to make Tyler a basket. I didn't get anything for Will. Partly because he isn't living here, but mostly because of his age. It don't help much that, he just doesn't get excited anymore. Now on the other hand if I gave Will 30 dollars, he would jump for joy.

Well I think I will go work out on my equipment. Can't have it being used to to hang clothes from. Bye for now.

more work stories

I am sad for my client. My boss came to visit, and said somethings that were could make a difference in life and death. It needed to be said. But I felt really bad. There is very little they can do for themselves these days. More of his independence was taken away from him.

I love my job!! It's very rewarding to be doing what I do. I think this world has things all mixed up though. I am underpaid. A waitress probably makes more than me. Not saying they don't earn their money. But I am out there taking care of old people. Watching them die. Not that I know when most clients are gonna go. But I have done hospice patients twice. I am not cut out for it. I don't handle the stress of watching people suffer. I can predict when death is near for them. I don't want to go there again. Bye for now.

Hello Spring is here! But we have snow!! Easter is around the corner. It came fast this year. I am working but coming home for downtime. It should be a good amount of money. Plus I get dinner out. I bought Tyler a big easter bunny!!! Shhhh don't tell. Bye for now.

work

I am hard at work!!! My lady I take care of is getting pampered. I don't totally follow the rules on what she gets done. Only suppose to get nails done every other week, but no one is noticing so far. I figure she can't take the money when she goes. She might as well have a good time, and feel pretty while she is still here. She is always bugging me to take her shopping. I would love to, but I can't go that far. I need money too!!

I don't want to have to be mean and not allow her to spend. So I just push the shopping off on another co worker. shhh don't tell. It will be about 5 pm before we get home. The time will go by pretty fast from there.

I hope she sleeps well. If she don't sleep well, no one does. lol. But you got to love her.
Can't not help but feeling frustrated but it don't last long.
Tomorrow I will have Will over for a few. I am still adjusting to him not living with us. I have mixed feelings if I want him to come back. I want his happiness, but also want Tyler happy. He wants his brother home. I don't have the time and energy to have Will home, or to have him part time. Lots of driving. Got to pay this man to listen to Bill and I attack each other. How fun!! Will need to drink after that.
Lately I have been really tired. I am overworked, and over stressed. Too much bullcrap in my life right now. Still thinking hard about the school issue. But the placement tests worry me. I haven't been to school in a really long time. What if I place as a 6th grader lol. Ever watch are you smarter than a 6th grader.. mmmmm I plead the 5th.
Well it's nice outside, and my soda is in the car. Better go rescue it before it get's too warm. Bye for now.

Today has been a busy day. Starting with my car not starting. Guess I didn't shut a door all the way. The owner of my company husband came and jumped started it. I went to a employee meeting right after that. My review and raise is very late. They were talking about changes in the office, and I got to make a joke out of the reviews.
Then off to the doc with Tyler.. Won't disclose that information though. Don't worry he is ok. Then I come home and no husband. Having to slave over the stove with a pizza. But got to save room for corn beef and cabbage with my guy. shhhhh don't tell. just kidding.
It's spring break for kids. I am not in tune with school as much as I used to. Don't have a clue when he goes back. Maybe there is something in the book bag. Bad mommy!!! Bye for now. Sponge Bob is on.

Hello, my beautiful wife! Remember that it is too easy for others to mess with you. Leavin web sites open and pocketbooks on counters can get you in trouble. I do love you and I won't mess with you but others may. Tyler came home and read your letter to him and just flat out ran to Tail's to show her. He was so proud. Well, I am gonna leave your blogger thingy alone now. I shouldn't be here. Bye now

I don't want to go to work today! I would rather stay home with my family and our zoo. 3.00 to get in, and we will sell you feed to feed the animals.

Tyler's birthday was very nice. We had a nice party. Tad did a very good job planning and cooking dinner. Tyler loved his gifts. He already learned his lesson about leaving the bike on the driveway. Had it taken away within the first hour. He don't understand that there are people who would steal from him.
His birthday did have a little damper on it. He doesn't seem to understand why his Dad didn't come. He was invited. Although I wish he came for Tyler. But divorce just puts a damper on holidays when kids want both of their parents. He is too little to understand, that his parents and stepdad can't get along.
I step my two feet in a college today. It was very scary. I don't understand the whole process. I applied for help paying for school, but I have to take tests and register to find out about the aid. Hello people I can't got to school,if I don't get help paying for it. I can't afford not to go, but at the same time. I can't afford to go.. I have to pay for the house, and the kids and everything else life throws my way. The only two people with kids that I know have gone to school, don't have to worry about a job. Even they find it a challenge.
Our animals are driving us Crazy!!! They make lots of messes. Always fighting with each other. Dogi don't want to listen to me anymore when I take her outside. I have to carry her out and set her on the ground. But the only thing is that, I am so tall. She hits the ground rolling. I don't mean to throw her to the ground. Poor dogi. No more pets in our house. 3 dogs, 2 cats, 2 gerbils, and 1 bunny is enough. Although a fish tank with some goldfish would be nice. haha. Still not over someone stealing my fish and the tank.
Today was Tad's birthday. I got to admit, I have been real cranky. Started with bitching at the ex, then not finding rock valley college. Thought it was on Alpine for some reason. Will try to post pictures of Tyler on his bike later this week. Tomorrow starts a new week. I have to work tomorrow. I do enjoy my couple. Tyler calls them my patients. They are good people. Not sure who is the boss though. Them or me. I get a lot of advice,and stuff from them.

Tyler's birthday!!!!

Tomorrow is Tyler's 8th birthday!! Growing up way too fast. I have to work tomorrow and only get about three hours to enjoy his special day. This weekend Will was here for a night, it went ok. As well can be expected.

Martin

This is Martin. He is my stepcat. haha. I didn't marry into money, but I got a very cool, lovable cat. He isn't afraid to get a dog or two. He is about 17 or 18 years old. He tells me he is going to live to be 21 so he can drink. But he is upset because we won't let him drive. He has taken a ride or two though. He tells me he has been in more states than me. He also says he hasn't been getting fed enough. I think he trying to fool me.. check out his belly. He is purring.. He has his own little condo under the stairs in the basement. Gots to love him.

My puppy is getting so big. I have a really big mess in the backyard. ewwww Anyone want to come help?

Suppose to be on my way to work. But court instead. Ex husbands suck!!! They stink too!!! I am never going to get another ex husband. Love you Tad!!!!! mmmmmm about early this morning.

mean dogi

1. A little mean dogi wanted to bit a cat, but got my arm. So not only is she really ugly. She is very mean.. haha. Got to love her. Also all the other animals.
2. 2. My husband took a cute picture with my son, holding his new wedding ring. Let's see if I can put the picture up.
3. Yea I did it.
   

Got to work today. I would rather stay home though. I miss my family and pets.

cat steals food. Tad tried to take food. Dog tries to help. Tad has a cat by the neck, dog hanging form the cat. Tad and Dogi hurting. Kitty walking around like nothing happened. Until Tad chases cat.

Home from work again. My clients were very happy yesterday. I broke rules though. It was worth it. Just ask Shadow. But he isn't talking. He loves to eat and have a warm house. Also ex husbands still suck! Divorce doesn't end the fighting. When the ex and I was married, just had to give sex and things would calm down. haha.. Not going there again.

mmmmmm fresh homemade blueberry muffins made for me. Very good. Ann says so too. I am very lucky to have Tad doing stuff for me. But lets not talk about how he makes too much noise in the early am.

Even though ex husbands still suck. I have had a good couple days with my new husband, plus I had a very long lunch with my good friend. Parking lot was full when we arrived, and last car left when we were leaving. I was trying to stay till the soda ran out. haha. Felt good to hang out with my friend, but ex husbands still suck.

ex husbands suck big time!!!

work stories. .. days of old people

When I get to work. The other caregiver gives me a hard time about some of the food,
I have been buying for them. They are on a restricted diet because of heart reasons. I can't give names so I will call the old people Bob and Sandy. Bob and Sandy are 96 and 97 years old. They have been married for 17 years. There is a few different caregivers that rotate shifts to take care of them.
I work the most days, and the grocery shopping is my job. The other lady was reminding me of their diet. I do my best. But at what point can they decide. Hey we have lived a long life. Longer than most people. Let them eat whatever their hearts desire. If she wants ice cream. Give her the whole container. give her the whole box of chocolate. Fix them dinners that they will enjoy, rather than have to be restricted because of diet. Isn't like my cat Tigger. I let her play outside even though it might shorten her life. She lived to be 17 years old. Could she have lived longer if I didn't let her roll in the grass. Shouldn't it be the same for the old people. Let them eat whatever they feel like it, after a certain age.
Last night we were watching the news and the last living survivor of the world war 1 was on the tv. He was born in 1901. I said to Bob that finally we seen someone who is older than him.
I love Bob and Sandy, but boy does the day go slow. I am glad to be home.

Burrrr it was so cold last night. I had to up the heat. Martin was in bed with me to help keep me warm. He doesn't hang out upstairs much when Ann is in the house, unless she is in her condo. Tyler went to church last night with his friend. It's something he really wants to do. Now he is so focused on it. It's all he can think about.
I have work today. 24 hour shift. I have the weekend to look forward to.I will come home Friday, and not due back to Sunday morning. I am hoping to to have a nice weekend. The kids will be gone. Well Will is already gone. Living with his Dad now.

Blended families suck! I am a prisoner in my own home. Because step dad and son can't get a long. I have to babysit them. 13 year old's act like they know everything. The step dad can't behave himself. I think he See's too much of the ex husband in him. So he treats him badly. Because he strongly dislikes the ex husband. He can't act his own age. Instead of trying to fix the problem, he helps create them. I also think he expects too much of him. Wants him to act like a adult,not a teenager.

my new puppy

A couple of months ago, my husband came up with this crazy idea to get a black lab. He is kicking himself in the ass. Because he didn't think I would jump on it.. Cute dog. But crazy idea. She has lots of energy. Needs to go to puppy class. Taking donations to afford the class. hehe.

marriage

Our Past way of living our lives and our marriages, makes it very hard to have full trust in each other. A little jealousy is cute, but demanding others stuff they aren't not willing to do themselves or have not done in the past is not very cute. Marriage is never ending progress. It's when couples stop talking about problems is when the real problems begin. I work for a couple that is near 100 years old. They have been married 17 years. This is there second chance at love. They each were married for about 50 years to their spouse till they died. I only hope I am as lucky in love as they have been in their life.

home

It sure feels good to be home from work. I slept until 8:45 am. Opps didn't mean too. Then my little old lady is trying to get up. I had to encourage her to go back to sleep. Way too early for old people to be up.
I picked up my title to my car. They said come back when you need a new car. I told them I try to make them keep running for as long as possible. My puppy is full of energy. Wish I could bottle it. Shadow doesn't like Ann. He is depressed. I hope he gets used to her. Little dogi doesn't seemed bothered as long as Ann doesn't step on her.

morning came too soon.

My husband woke me up jumping up and down on me. Not the fun way to wake up. He said he was bored. I know there is cleaning that could be done. It is sweet that he wants to hang with me. But I need more sleep. I have to work today. 24 hours away from home really sucks. But on the other hand I do get to sleep till 8 am. Besides the two or three times my little lady wakes up.
I think Tad is right about the heat, it's just too cold. I have too many bills, and it's one I can lower some. Well time to get ready. Another day=deeper in debt.

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