This is Tj and my brother Matt in the background. They made this picture when goofing around on the computer. I am not sure who knows more about computers, Matt or Tj? haha . They both know their way around a computer very well.

update on Shadow

He is doing better than I would have thought, we have taken the collar off, as long as we are watching him. I took him with me to drop the kids to their Dad. Then we went to the post office to check the p.o. box to check the box. No one sent Ann any toys, probably a good thing, because she hasn't been on her best behavior. Shadow pee'd on the floor at the post office. He said "that's what ya get for raising the cost of stamps" Do it again stupid idiots and see what I do next. Don't ya know it costs more than a penny to make a penny stamp. and I have the little brain.

Ann had her stitches out from her spay. I picked up her up a heart room pill. When she is a year old, she can donate blood to earn her keep. 25.00 for a donation, she only has to give 60 times to make the money, that it cost to take care of shadow.

Presous gave me a birthday present, a dead little birdie!! ewwww why do my animals want to gross me out. My husband prepared for the bird for her lunch. just kidding, but sure glad that he was here to deal with the bird. bye for now.

Shadow

Big dog and little dog fighting doesn't equal good news. Shadow lost his snack plus his eye. I feel really bad for him. I should have been watching over him, protecting him. He spent all night in the emergency room at the cost of 1200.00, plus now is at the regular doc's office for some more money. I wouldn't have done it any different, could have put him down, but the thought never crossed my mind. Going to have to find a way to make more money to pay the credit card bill. The important thing is that he will be OK. Scarred for life but OK.
Right now I am visiting hell, and I am going to keep fighting so maybe I can get out before the devil knows I am there. Bye for now

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Here now

I am at work yesterday doing the dishes, and I hear Bob* say something to his wife, and I think Damn I am going to miss these guys when they leave this earth. Sometimes it makes me want to cry thinking about it. Or cry when I see her mental health go down the tube. But I tell myself to keep strong and keep on taking care of them.
Then at night when I am hanging out in the hallway, because Sandy is in the bathroom, he comes up to me. He gives me a hug, and says "I love you, your a great lady" I told him that I love him too, and that I enjoy coming to see them. On my birthday May 30th, I have been with them for a year. He talks about his kids and grandkids quite a bit. I missed having that kind of relationship with grandparents. I take care of them, but I also get lectured and try not to let him see me drinking tons of soda, so maybe in a way. I got foster grandparents.

Today is Memorial Day. There are many people are died for their country, and today we think of them. But we should think of them more often, because they gave us freedom. Rest in peace veterans lost to the wars. Lets love not fight.

* when I mention my clients name, they are fake names to protect their privacy. Bye for now.

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I bought jenga, been a while since I have played this game. We all had a pretty good time. Will was here on the weekend, for the most part he acted pretty good. bye for now

Mediation wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. But just in case anyone is wondering, this means that a purple elephant didn't run him over.

I am in for two hours of sitting with my ex husband, this is gonna suck. It will drive me to want to drink. But it has to be done. I hope this mediation stuff works, I am tired of all the crap. It will be just as bad sitting in a divorce court room for two hours. I think happy married couples, should just go sit in those court rooms. Maybe if they seen all the bullshit that goes on after a divorce, they will see that a divorce doesn't end the fighting. So ya might as well make it work. Not saying that, I am unhappy that I am remarried. Well got to finish getting ready to talk with the ex. That's if a big purple elephant doesn't run him over on the way there. hahahaha

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My guy took Ann to the vet to have her checked out because of our concerns with a bump under his cut. They said it's nothing to be too worried about, but to keep a eye on it. I don't have any experience with spaying a dog, so I am not sure how often this condition happens. I have had a couple cats spayed and nothing like that.

I haven't been doing very well, Fighting with my guy, and not getting enough sleep. Drinking way to much soda, but then again, I always do. I worry about my clients, I try and do the best care for them. It's sometimes stressful working around people who are slipping. They might say something and I think they are joking but they are for real. Like Bob asking me what kind of ice cream, I handed them. I said french vanilla. He said it looked like chocolate, I told him he better get back to the eye doc. haha. Not sure if he was making a joke. I am pretty sure he was. Today I made them home made custard, don't know how they eat that stuff. Yuck!! Oh well. Next week, I am going to make them carrot cake. Well give it my best shot at it. They don't have everything, I will need to do it.

They are getting a new caregiver next month, one lady of many years is leaving. It's funny a year ago, I was at the bottom of the Tadpole list when it came to the other caregivers, now I am at the top. Not so sure I like the top. Next week I am taking a mini vacation. I can't afford it, but going to do it anyway. Well got to run.

Tonight we moved Roger to the back porch, he will be much happier there. Ann is doing pretty good, but there maybe a complication from her surgery. My husband is taking her to the vet tomorrow.I hope she will be just fine. Tonight she was chasing her tail, a few times she actually got it. and ran in circles holding her tail. She is a silly dog, but got to love her. Bye for now, got to brush my hair out, and make my guy braid it.

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Need toys or i eat the boy, refer to post below.

My car is broke!! Thanks to uncle Sam, I have the money to fix it. I think it was all a scam. Uncle Sam broke my car. I seen a 2002 station wagon for sale, it was very cool. I would love it, but I know I can't afford to pay for it.
Ann is doing pretty good, if it wasn't for the scar and that they shaved her belly, you wouldn't know she was put through major surgery. She is in need for some good dog toys, she tears up stuffed animals. Please mail toys to 5225 Harrison ave. P.O. 8612 Rockford, il 61125-9300

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Kitty for sale.will mail him to new home,price one million dollars

Ann

Ann is home from the vet. She is okay, but looks so sad. She is getting around pretty good. No running and jumping. I feel guilty doing this to her, but I know it's for the best. No puppies for us, Can ya see us having 8 labs because no one is good enough to have her pups? lol, She is real calm, even Shadow has been near her, and not trying to rip her to pieces, or should I say rip the couch up. Check back later for her recovery process.

I can't wait till tomorrow, Two days without work. I spend too much time here. I mess up and call it home. Sometimes it bugs me, I don't feel as if I belong at my house, or totally in thier house.
I am nervous for my puppy, She is going in to get spayed. I don't want puppies, I know we would be too temtped to keep one, and also just not going to help add more animals to this world, when their are others that don't have homes.
Ann is a beatiful girl, I love her very much. I will never forget my first time having a lab. She was a mix of lab and collie. Her name was Blue. I had to give her up because we lost our home, and had to move to a apartment. I think of her daily, when I go past the house we got her from. I don't want anyone ever to tell me what animal I can or can't have. Except for my husband telling me, that I can't keep Ann's litter of puppies. haha. Ann is a pure bread, no papers though. Who cares? She has this graceful walk, lets herself out to potty, has me trained to rub her belly. She loves water, and doesn't mind getting dirty. She does step on Shadow on accident and chews on the kitty. But she isn't hurting him.
Well soon I have to get back to my client. bye for now.

I have a big problem, don't know what to do. I love my husband but loving him is slowing bringing me down the road of hitting rock bottom. See he has crazy spending habits, and I can't afford it. Of course I spend money too. I got a lab and Friday, my husband is going to drive her to the vet to get fixed for me. That's money I really shouldn't spend, but I have walked through the animal shelters, and I know animals get put down. All because not enough people love them. So I am doing my part and going to not let her breed. Love to see cute puppies, but since I can't keep them all. Got to do the right thing.
I love my family and all our 8 animals, but we are crazy!! bye all. Ann is chewing on Marty.

At work I keep a blanket of my own. It's a blanket my husband gave me before we were married, It's getting pretty old and I need a new one for work. When I was getting ready to go, I was picking up pieces of the blanket off the floor. Then a thought comes to my head. You know your a redneck when your blanket is shedding, and your still using it.

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Martin and Marty. Martin is old, and Marty is young. The two are fast becoming buddies. Marty has really gotten to be friends, They play a lot. I hope they continue to play.

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This is Dogi. She was Tad's pet, my step child. haha. Tad saved her from a life of living in a cage, and kids treating her like a rag doll. She had a good five years with Tad. I like to think she had a blast with Shadow, he showed her to chew bones, and eat treats, and to play like a dog. They had good times. Then came the health problems, and she didn't play, and cried a lot. It was very sad, but Tad made the choice to end her suffering. She is in the special place, hanging out with Tigger, and having a good time.

Rest in peace Dogi. Love ya,

It's mothers Day. Mothers Day used to be time with family, well mostly my then husband's family. I never spent the day working. I had both my kids with me. Life changes fast, not always for the bad. Instead of family, we are going to my friends house for a cookout on my break. That's if the rain doesn't spoil the day.
I hope my clients have a little something planned for today, Who knows how many more Mothers Day, Sandy will see. She is 97 years old. I should have planned something, a little treat or something, but I didn't do it. Oh well, nothing I can do now. Have a good day all.

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Tad and tyler

Push play, this isn't not a blank video. No kittens were harmed in the making of this video.

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This is William posing with the cats, he is 13 and thinks he knows it all. He is currently staying with his Dad. He thinks the grass is greener on the other side. bye for now.

Ann and other stuff

Today I took Ann to the vet for a exam before she gets fixed. She is up to 48 pounds. Today I took her for a walk, and out of the blue, I just decided to walk to the bank, and use the ATM. Then we took a stroll through the outside garden at Kmart. She sure gets a lot of people's attention. She has this graceful walk, and her tongue hangs down low. I really don't want to take her in for surgery but then again, I can't take the chance of her having puppies. There are too many animals that no one cares about. Just watch that commercial that shows the animals that are beaten and starved. So next week she is getting fixed.

It just occurred to me that I haven't yet posted a picture of Will. He is a brat, but he is mine. I will work on that. My co worker notified our company, that she is quitting. They put a ad in the paycheck about needing someone to fill the days. I hope they can find someone. Even though I am broke, three live in shifts is enough for me. Bye for now.

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This is Fuzzy and Amy, They are Tyler's and mine gerbils. Fuzzy is the black one, and Amy is the white one. The story behind them, is that I wanted to get Tyler a pet. He used to bring worms, and bugs in the house and want to keep them as his pet. He killed a couple worms on a accident, and then would get upset. So I decided for Christmas to get him a pet. Because he was going to spend a week with his Dad, I thought it would be cruel to pick it up then. So one his presents was a handwritten note that promised him a gerbil.

So when he came home from his Dad's we went and he picked our Fuzzy. After a day or two, I really got to thinking how cute it would be for Fuzzy to have a play mate. But it would tick off William if Tyler got another pet. So we got Amy and she is mine. But they live together. They are from the same litter, and at first, I thought they would kill each other. But after a few days of fighting. They learned to get along.

Tyler takes pretty good care of them. He takes the wheel out at night, so the noise don't keep him awake. He calls it on punishment. We give them the toilet and paper towel rolls to run though and chew. Tad one day said, " I wonder if they like getting them or think of them as a job to do" I suppose we will never know. Amy has escaped the cage a couple times, and ran into the living room. She has lived to squeak about it. No kitty cat got her and ate her up.

Now all my animals have been posted on my Blog. I really don't want anymore, I would love to have a fish tank full of big goldfish, but admit I don't want to do the work of cleaning the tank. That is what people need to do. Admit to themselves that they don't want to do the work, and then don't get the animal. Also remember a animal doesn't just effect one person in the family, it effects them all. So it shouldn't be one person who decides.

Unless of course the animal was your pet before you met the person. I will never forget after I put money down on a apartment for my boyfriend, now ex husband said he was allergic to cats, and Tigger couldn't live with us. I told him that's too bad for him, Where are you going to live??

Rest in peace Tigger, I should of known then not to marry him. hahaha. I think she kept trying to tell me by attacking his feet. If only I spoke cat. Oh well, what is done is done. Bye all.

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I have been very sad these last couple of days. Tad and I have hit a road block in our marriage, I am not sure how to fix it. What it takes to keep him happy, is draining me. I can't support his needs and wants, and if he works more hours, to get it with his own money, then I have to pay a babysitter for Tyler. I am screwed no matter what I do. It makes me feel bad because I say things I don't mean. I try to not let myself repeat my mistake but I have been.
I am not sleeping well at night. I don't want to fight, but I feel as if I give in, then I am putting myself and Tad and the kids at risks. If know from the past that if I get too far behind, it's next to impossible to bounce back. I am too old to go running to my Dad's. Too old to be screwing around, with not having money to pay the bills. Besides running home to my Dad's isn't a option.
I don't think he has room for my husband, kids, and our eight animals.

To make matters worse, I get to work and I hear what I think is going to be bad news for my clients and myself. One of my co workers who works with the clients, that I do, is quitting at the end of May. She no longer needs a paycheck. Won't go into details. I am happy for her though. I am the only one who knows as of this morning. They can't seem to find anyone to work live-in shifts and now we have two days open. I could just move in with them, and start making more money, solve my problems mentioned above. Just send my paychecks home. I can't see myself working anymore than I am already doing. I feel really bad for my clients, they can't seem to keep any help. Hello company we are under paid. But no one has asked me. I am starting to get bitter and let them know why. Don't get me going on my review and raise that was due seven months ago.

Then I am reading the newspaper at work, and it's talking about gas getting up to 4.00 a gallon. We all might as well, just sit in our home, and rot, and wait for everyone to kick us out. Pretty soon, we will all be spending half our money just to get to work.
Well I better get going, enough complaining for now. I got a job to do.

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This is mine and Tad's house. Except for when I am mad at him, then it's just mine. We are very proud of it. I just love to sit outside and look at it, and walk around the yard. It's all ours, We can do what we want. No one can make me give up a pet, because they don't allow it. They can't make me choose between my pet, and a place to live. A special Thanks to the old apartments who tried to kick us out over a animal, and that was Roger. If they weren't such jerks, we might still be renting. You can't see much of our yard work in this picture. Check back later in the summer. Bye for now.

Can you hear the birds singing? There are flowers everywhere. It's driving me crazy, I have a huge back yard, a small front yard. The only one that I can really plant is the front because of the Big goofy dog. Tad let her in the front, and I come home to two damaged rose bushes. Sometimes I let her in the front when I am out there, So she can say hello to the world, and everyone knows we have a big dog. shhhh don't tell them she sleeps in her condo at night.
I have a guy coming later to see about putting up a fence to divide the back yard. One half for her, and the other half for us. Probably too expensive, but it's a free estimate and, I can dream right?
Home ownership is very cool!! but it has it's downers too. I want to change things, to make it more mine, but everyone keeps taking all my money. Sucks to be grown. bye for now.

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Will work for food

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Rub my belly

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Shadow is taking up a collection for money for a haircut!

Teen age years are not the best years to parent. It's no wonder anyone is living to speak of their teenage days. I have made Tyler promise he won't grow up to be a grumpy teenager. If my math is right, by the time Will is grown and on his own, Tyler will be a teenager. That's not good.
Well got to get ready for work, working with the elderly doesn't get too boring, between the hunting for items they lost, the loud tv, the waiting on them hand and foot, and the cleaning, and the mood swings, it doesn't get too dull.
Then you got the comments that you think are funny, but then realize they aren't joking. In the morning one recent day, she said. " Are you still my husband?" I kind of laughed, and then he asked me what she said, because they can't hear very well. I repeated it but then I noticed she wasn't joking. Opps I shouldn't have laughed. Then there is the time when I am in the kitchen and he turns the sound down, and tells her. " I wish we could talk more, neither one of us can hear each other." I can talk to him or her, and they can hear me, they just can't seem to hear each other. It's sad to think of not being able to have a conversation with your spouse. But then again maybe, that's not such a bad thing after all.

The best part of my job is that at night, I get a hug and kiss from him and a kiss from her. They treat me like family. Live in care has really been a experience but I am not sure, I want to get another client after they die. Well got to run.

If ya can't tell, We have lots of animals. There are a couple that aren't on here yet, but give me time. Tigger has left this world for another one. Little Dogi is buried beside her, and across the bridge, She chases Dogi around.
This past month I have been working on getting kids up to date with the dentist, and optical appointments. Tyler needs glasses, and my eyes stayed the same. Today Will and I went to the dentist, poor Will had to have two baby teeth pulled, because they should have came out years ago. I walked out proud because I didn't need any work done. The cute guy who took pictures of my teeth said. " somebody has been doing good" I set a great ex sample for Will. I only go to the dentist to set a good ex sample, also little bit that, I would like to keep my teeth.
Check back later for more pictures. I learned how to send them from my cell phone, I think that's so cool, that I can update my blog without being online. Bye for now

Tigger

Reincarnation, literally "to be made flesh again", is a doctrine or metaphysical belief that some essential part of a living being (in some variations only human beings) survives death to be reborn in a new body. This essential part is often referred to as the spirit or soul, the "higher" or "true" self, "divine spark", or "I". According to such beliefs, a new personality is developed during each life in the physical world, but some part of the self remains constant throughout the successive lives

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Tigger a few days before she left me

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I had a great weekend. Tad and I took, Tyler to his learning expo, which included dinner and a book fair,and then Tj went to his Dad's. I really enjoyed my time with Tad. We really didn't do anything special, just hung out. Last night, we watched 40 year old virgin. It was a girl movie, and he put up with it. He did go and fix a couple little things on the cars. If he keeps that up, I will have him fixing up the house in no time. Well I have to get ready for work, I will miss him, and all the little critters. I learned how to send pictures from my cell phone till my blog. So watch out, so you all can see my zoo. bye for now.

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This is Martin and Marty. Marty is making Martin act young. It's so cute, the way He holds him down and licks on him, and slaps him around. No one is getting hurt. Got to love them both.

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Some kind advice I want to pass on. Not saying I would do it different. Divorce doesn't end the fighting, it makes it at least five times worse. There is no longer make up sex after the fighting, or give sex to end the fighting. I am not getting a divorce from my second husband for a few reasons.
1. He braids my hair. (notice cat climbing my braid right now)
2. I love him very much!
3. I don't think I could handle another ex husband. haha. Someone would have to die.
Well that's my advice, now let me get that cat out of my hair.

I am working my normal 24 hour shift. I really miss my family. I am ready for a easy week. Take a mini vacation. I don't need to go anywhere. Just really ready for a extra day off. I would love to hang out with my great husband, Tyler, even the moody teenager Will. But really if I am honest, I am more interested in some one on one time with Tad, not the kids. Summer is around the corner, and then I will see more of them.
I think husbands and wives get too wrapped up in daily routines, and tend to take each other for granted. Love you baby!!! Smiles I love you!! (((((hugs and kisses))) bye for now.

In about three more months, I am going to be a college student. How scary!!!! If my kids would listen, I would tell them to go to school, before starting a family. It would been much easier to do it the other way, but I wouldn't trade my kids in. Now maybe trade in the ex husband lol, well that was wrong, no ex, no kids. If I didn't have my past choices, I wouldn't be where I am today.