Friday, December 30, 2011
breakfast
Today, I made Tyler breakfast. Tad didn't want any and William is with his friend. I been doing most of my grocery shopping at aldi's and I found a skillet type breakfast deal that reminded me of the skillet meals I used to order when we used to go out to eat more.
It was pretty yummy. Here is a picture to prove that I actually cooked breakfast but don't count on me cleaning the kitchen. Tad always says I make a huge mess but he loves me anyways.
Friday, December 23, 2011
2 more days until Christmas. I hope my kids like what I picked for them. It can be hard at times to figure out what they want in my price budget. I am having Christmas dinner at my place this year. Michelle is going to come over and help cook dinner. Hopefully everyone will get along and none of the males will try to hit each other. haha If I had to guess who would get mad and hit someone it would be my Dad. Naughty Dad!!! hahaha
Hopefully my Mom will come too. She has to work the holiday so it's hard to say. Well, I guess I rambled on long enough.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
It's kind of quiet around here tonight. William and Tyler are spending the night with their Grandma on their Dad's side so Tad and I are having what I think is going to be a yummy dinner. I have finished a major Christmas project for Ashley but I can't say what it is yet. I hope she likes it. I love that I can buy her gifts now. I am sad that she is moving away but it's not up to me. I am happy for her though. She is braver than I am. I can't imagine picking up and moving.
I am enjoying my week off from work. The holidays bring on so much drama with the old people and it's nice not to have to deal with most of it this year.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
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Saturday, December 17, 2011
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Thursday, December 15, 2011
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Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Monday, December 12, 2011
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Thursday, December 8, 2011
I have been seeing quite a bit of Ashley lately. Well, not a lot but seen her more this past couple months than I did all year. We been getting our nails done together and yesterday we got our feet done. It was the first time that I got a pedicure. I don't normally spend on myself but to hell with it. I love spending time with her. She is the sweetest girl. It's a chance in a lifetime to get to know her. She is moving away next month. sniff sniff. I wish she wasn't but I have to give her credit for being so brave and plus she is going to continue college where she is going. I am glad her boyfriend is going with her. I like him too. They seem good together.
Well, I have to get ready for work.
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Friday, November 11, 2011
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Thursday, November 10, 2011
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Monday, November 7, 2011
The holidays tend to be stressful times for the elderly. It's like they get super fixated on them and a lot of times they no longer shop so they always think they need to get ready for it. Or they don't prepare for the holidays cause they go to family.
I am employee of the month but so is all the rest of the comfort keepers cause we made it through business jumping through the roof. Well, I should get to sleep. Breakfast with Tyler, then Amiah and me get pretty and smell good together with lotion and brushing our hair and teeth. Then, work for five hours. I believe I will be taking my client to the doc so hopefully I won't leave anything of mine. I always concentrate so much on them that I have been known to forget my own stuff.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
I almost wasn't able to go cause I forgot about Tyler's night at the library when I set the date. But it's nice that Jen was able to pick him. Thanks a million!
I feel so darn lucky to have Ashley back in my life. Not everyone is so lucky to get to meet their child after being separated by adoption. Actually, I don't if anyone that experiences adoption loss is lucky but I am a lot luckier than some who don't know where the kids are and find them and get rejected.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
It took about an hour for her to get up to walk her dog and then I suggested we go out to eat for dinner. She seemed very open to the idea and I named a pasta place and she agreed. My company's policy is that she pays for my meal but since I asked it just didn't feel right so I went knowing that I would pay for my own. If she had asked then I could stick to the policy but I don't want anyone thinking I was taking advantage of her. I was looking out for her best interest and that was all.
We had a nice dinner at the pasta place and went home very full. I can't afford to pay for my own but I just can't get past the feeling that clients feel that paying for a client is a royal pain in the ass. It feels more like friends if the friend can pay her/his own way. I think that is part of my issue with how I do my job as a caregiver. I want to feel more like a friend than a worker. Not that I don't work and earn my money but just feel like we enjoy each other's company compared to just being stuck with each other.
Don't know if I made a lot of sense. It's late. I should get to sleep.
Friday, October 28, 2011
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Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Today, I went to aldi after work and spent 100 in food. I didn't think that was possible there. Tonight, we are cooking a huge pizza that I got from there.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
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Sunday, October 16, 2011
I do my best to be the best Mom to Tyler and the best Grandma to Amiah. Amiah always says Momma but Tad thinks she says mymy. Well, I tell her Grandma so she will say my name. It's cute. This picture was taken at the church last week when it was warm out still. I love that my little part time job allows me to bring Tyler and Amiah with me. They even accept naughty teenagers like William. haha
One of my fun moments during the day is when I get ready for work Amiah tends to hang out with me. She wants to get the same things I do to myself. I have this new cherry lotion and body spray and she wants the same thing. I only put a tiny bit on her. She brushes her hair with me and her teeth also.
I am sick right now cause I kissed on her when she was sick. So, no one can say that Amiah doesn't share. lol So, far Tyler hasn't gotten the sickness and that's good cause of his asthma.
He is in middle school now and that's seems as stressful for me that it is for him. Well, i kind of rambled and should rest cause I work tomorrow. I hope they don't ever make me work six days again. I need two days off with my family,
Saturday, October 15, 2011
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Monday, October 10, 2011
Tonight, I went back to volunteer and my little sister couldn't come. We had eight children and three volunteers. Lots, of crying babies but I did get the one that always cries to sleep on me.
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Wednesday, October 5, 2011
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Friday, September 30, 2011
retreat
I suppose they kick you because the school is suppose to take over with the therapy and stuff but don't get me started there. Will someone tell me why Tyler graduated from speech as soon as middle school started but there are times he still stumbles over words?
I suppose I should be grateful for how far he has come and I am. I am so proud of him. Well, I have to get a few things to bring with me.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
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Tuesday, September 27, 2011
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Monday, September 26, 2011
She wrote back and said that it would be okay to call her. Can you imagine fretting over if it was okay to call your own child? To fear she would say what for? Or she might say why would I want to talk to you? It's what adoption does to a mother. It tears in self esteem down. It makes her feel less worthy than other Mother's. It just plain sucks.
I decided to just ask cause I want more. I want to really know my daughter. I don't just want to be a "friend" on the site. l. It's a huge relief that she said yes. Now, the question is can I talk freely without tripping over my words and putting my foot in my mouth.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
I don't know if that is good or bad. He does know how he used sign language as a young kid but of course doesn't remember sign. It's hard to believe that he didn't talk until about six or seven.
Well, anyways, I am looking forward to the retreat. It's kind of scary cause most likely I won't know anyone there. I almost told this friend that has a child with health issues about it but I really kind of just want to focus on me and don't want the distractions of friends.
It's going to be very different for me cause I have never been away from home. I have always been with my husband or kids. I know I will miss them. Also, gonna miss my pets.
Monday, September 19, 2011
I am working more now because we just couldn't make it through the week. It was no fun for me to be part time if we are dirt poor. I feel so rotten if my kids need something and I can't buy it. Sometimes, something will be on my mind for weeks before I just break down and spend the money.
This week I bought Tyler a sweat jacket, new bed sheets and got him a hair cut. Tomorrow, we are going to see the Lion King. I can't wait.
In case your wondering what all the construction pictures are about it's a building that is going up outside my new clients apartment. I am taking pictures of it weekly but I notice that not much is showing up different. I may have to start taking them biweekly to see if we can see something differnt in them.
Well, I should get some sleep cause morning comes soon enough.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
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Sunday, September 11, 2011
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Thursday, September 8, 2011
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Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Back to her birthday. I am not sure what to get her. I can't afford a lot because of all the past due bills that I am catching up. This isn't the time to ignore them. I am probably just going to send some flowers cause honestly I still don't really know her well enough to pick out the perfect gift. It's sad but it's the truth. Well, I am happy that I can send gifts cause before I couldn't. So, I will take what I can get. I love her so much that I would give her the moon but I don't think I can get a ladder tall enough.
Monday, September 5, 2011
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Thursday, September 1, 2011
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Sunday, August 28, 2011
Here you see Ann getting ready to drive me and her to the bike path. Don't worry she is a good driver. She doesn't drink and drive or text and drive.
Here you see Ann getting a drink out of the river. We did quite a bit of walking on the bike path but what we would do is walk a little and rest. I was reading an interesting book so I would pick a good view and read. Then, I would walk more until we were tired and read more. We must been out there for a couple hours. I would have stayed longer but my back gets stiff if I don't have good support.
I regret that I haven't done this yet this summer. It's so peaceful to sit on the river with my dog and a good book.
Thursday, August 25, 2011
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Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Tyler had his first day of middle school. I been a little worried about it. I feel nervous and scared for him. When he came home and told us about his day it all checked out okay so far. So, Tad, said no crying or fit throwing. I said, "ya not from him" hahaha I felt like crying but I had to go work a couple hours.
Another funny thing about stuff said here is that I told Tyler when he cracks his knuckles I am going to pinch him. I just said this last night. This morning, Tyler said, I cracked my knuckles and then I pinch myself. hahaha he was serious. He just don't get it that the pinches are cause it's not good for his hands.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
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Friday, August 19, 2011
Well, I am going to lunch with an old friend and then I got to go to work and I am off the whole weekend. Unless, they call me.
Oh and Will is starting at Regional Learning Center. I wish he kept his act together and could walk across the grand state at the Metro Center but it's not going to happen. I know I graduated from there but I hoped for better for him. Well, there is still Tyler, right?
Monday, August 15, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
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Saturday, August 13, 2011
We went down there and there were tons of people. I wondered if they had enough to go around. The amount of people there was kind of sad. It shows just how poor our community is getting to be. There was all kinds of people. Sometimes, when you think of people who need that kind of help I know it's wrong but I tend to think more of black people. Sorry, if that offends anyone. Well, there was of all races down there getting the book bags and supplies. To top it off it started to rain. So, everyone is crammed together trying to stay dry. We managed to get our stuff pretty fast cause Tad heard that they said people didn't have to wait in line.
All in all it wasn't a lot of stuff. But it's a start. Normally, all I have to worry about is school supplies and maybe a book bag and if he is lucky one or two new things because I don't normally buy all his clothes at once. This year, I have to buy school informs. I am thinking about four of five complete sets. I have to get him gym uniforms and whatever is on his list.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Family night at camp
We are bringing all of us Subway to eat together then they have an event going on. Then, he comes home tomorrow.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
My granddaughter
Some people give me strange looks when I say I have a granddaughter. I guess it's cause I am pretty young. I hate getting into it all about how this is our second marriage and Amiah is my step daughter's daughter. It makes me feel like only half of a Grandma or something. But to pretend otherwise wouldn't be fair to Amiah's Grandmother by birth.
Well, anyways, I love being a Grandma to her. In this picture, she is near her teddy bear that I got for her and sitting on Charlie our dog. Earlier, she is playing with him and teasing him with a ball that he wanted. She was giggling up a storm. I am so lucky to have this opportunity to have Amiah with my husband and me during the day while her Mom and Dad work.
I love doing things with Amiah. Last Saturday, she had a pony ride and played around on the playground and looked at the animals. Monday, I took her to Mc'Donald's for some breakfast. She stole my hash brown but I was gonna share anyways. Today, Tad, Amiah and I went for a long walk around the neighborhood. We found some cool spots around the river for camping. I don't think that used to be there. We let Ann walk without the leash. It was a blast. Amiah is so much fun to have around. This morning, I made her a breakfast burrito out of scrambled eggs, tomato and cheese. She ate up almost every bite. She must been hungry from the walking we did.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
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Sunday, August 7, 2011
Friday, August 5, 2011
We went to the goodwill to get him a suitcase, rain jacket, hat and some used shoes for when they are going to get messy. I seen a cute doll stroller for sale and I just had to get it for Amiah. I think she should have fun pushing her teddy bear or one of my dolls around.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Monday, August 1, 2011
Thursday, July 28, 2011
I just had to see if anyone had them on Ebay. So, I bid one just one card and won the bid. I can't wait till it comes. It's so interesting how memories can just surface from what seems like out of no where.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
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It's not about the money! Oh, yes it is!
Tonight, I learned that she is going into a home for the elderly. I can't give specific details but basically I am sure she won't be needing our services. I find this sad because if all possible the home is best. I just love where she lives. It's so peaceful and I just love going for walks there. It almost gives me a feeling of a campground but I can't quite put my finger on why I get that feeling.
Besides, her going into a home and that being sad and she has to give up her pets, but it's a really bummer because I am probably going to lose the extra income and the chances of picking up more hours right away is very slim. I am really hoping she stays home long enough for me to work those hours closer to school starting because it's going to cost be a fortune to get Tyler ready for school this year.
It's this feeling of facing a financial loss or gain over clients that weighs heavily on me. I hate that the first thing that pops in my head after learning of this upcoming change after shock is damn there goes that money. If makes me feel shallow.
I been working for this same company for almost five years and you would think that I would be used to it by now. I have had some clients that I have gotten close to. Only one set that I was extremly close to. I have seen more clients for one or more shifts that I can even remember now.
I would like to sing that cool song that says it's not about the money or the caching caching. ya know money sounds but I don't live in a perfect world and money isn't growing off trees and I wasn't born to a rich family. Hmmm unless my parents didn't tell me something??? hahaha.
Well, it's 1 am and I should get comfy and think about sleeping.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
I figure it's probably the same bull crap but different company anyways. Well, I got to get off here and go to work. I am up to 26 and half hours now. I actually have a new client and it's not in town but not far. It's kind of a nice dry except if your tummy hurts really bad and your afraid you might poop your pants. hahaha well pretend I didn't say that.
Oh if you seen one of my sunflower plants looking dropping it wasn't cause I crashed into with my car.
Monday, July 18, 2011
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Since, I worked Tuesday night, which is my Y night I had to go at other times. I went on Thursday and Saturday I left for work a few hours early so I could go to the Y. I worked out on the elliptical and then I did some laps in the pool. After swimming, I rested out in the sun on the deck.
I knew I would be hungry so I made me a sandwich and brought a soda in Tyler's lunch box and I sat down on a bench and ate while looking at the river. It was so nice. It makes me want to have a picnic with my kids. I almost didn't sit there because it would take me the extra few minutes to get to the bench and I didn't want to be late for work. But I decided to just go for it and risk being late. I wasn't late though.
Today, I babysat at the church like always and I been thinking about taking Amiah with me sometime. I think she would love all the toys and there are other kids there to play with.
After babysitting, I went to the goodwill and bought a few things for one of the children that I babysit at MELD. He has been coming every since he was a newborn. He is about 10 months now. He is very sweet. Well, anyways, I noticed that he seems to need some clothes.
When I got home from babystting, I fed Amiah some lunch and then we played with some playdoh. We made hot dogs and we pretended to eat them. At first. Amiah really wanted to eat it but then I actually seen her pretending to eat it. She didn't really want to sit down and play with it but it's the rules with playdoh.
I love being a Grandma. It's kind of funny when I tell people that I have a grand-daughter because I don't look like I am old enough to be one. So, I have to explain that my husband is older than me and had children from that marriage so I have step children. I just don't like the word step though. It feels so cinderella. lol
Saturday, July 16, 2011
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Friday, July 15, 2011
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Tuesday, July 12, 2011
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Sunday, July 10, 2011
You are looking at a picture of Ashley and Tyler and Batman at Six Flags. Tyler was given a free ticket to Six Flags from his school for being a star reader. I asked Ashley if she would mind taking him because I just don't get into the rides and have zero patience for long lines. However, I didn't want Tyler to miss it because of me.
So, today, Ashley, Kyle and Tyler went to Six Flags. It was a pretty hot day but I didn't notice too much because of the air. Well, anyways, Tad, Amiah and I were outside just hanging out when Ashley and Kyle arrived here with Tyler.
Tyler got out and just started talking and it was almost like he couldn't stop. He just said he had so much fun. Before, Ashley and Kyle could leave to go home Jen and Ray pulled up to get Amiah. She was able to meet Ashley. It's strange how I went from not really being able to tell anyone that I had a daughter to actually have two daughters in the same place at the same time. It's just amazing! It's almost too good to be true.
Oh, and I forgot to mention Ashley got to meet Tad and last but not least she got to meet my sweet grand daughter Amiah. Again, it's almost too good to be true. Tyler can't seem to stop talking about Ashley.
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Friday, July 8, 2011
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Jennifer bought a pool for Amiah to have at our house. I love having her around. She is a lot of fun and generally a very happy young girl. It's fun to watch her become more toddler compared to a baby. She loves to feed herself and is starting to get the hang of it. She loves this pool! She can get in and out of it. It's cute to watch cause she enters head first! I got in there with just my feet and splashed around. I told Papa, I was going to get my swimming suit and he looked at me as if I was crazy. I was just joking about my suit though.
Amiah is on the go a lot so hugs and cuddles are extra special now. I love to cradle her in my arms when I catch up to her. I feel very lucky that we get to take care of her while Jen and Ray bring home the bacon.